Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Miss him again

After he going to PLKN, we rarely text or onthephone. he'll get his is phone on every saturday from his warden. and last saturday, we onthephone and before he called me he did texted me.

nyah, im going to call you tonight..NO EXCUSE.

I was so excited
i miss him, really

fiqa: you buat ape?
afrokid: baring je. you tau tak nyah .... blablabla
after 15 minutes
Fiqa & afrokid :zZzZzZzZ during onthephone
after 45 minutes
sister: weh, handphone kau jatuh. kau onthephone ke ape? asal tido?
looked at my handphone
Fiqa: nyahh!!?
Afrokid: *silent*
Fiqa: goodnight syg, i love you mwahh
*hang up*
i dont know why i feel so like exhausted, but i miss onthephone with him. i'll be waiting for him.

Friday, June 26, 2009

the Memorial for Michael Jackson

Michael Joseph Jackson (born August 29, 1958) is an American recording artist, entertainer, and businessman. The seventh child of the Jackson family, he debuted on the professional music scene at the age of 11 as a member of The Jackson 5 and began a solo career in 1971 while still a member of the group. Referred to as the "King of Pop" in subsequent years, five of his solo studio albums have become some of the world's best-selling records: Off the Wall (1979), Thriller (1982), Bad (1987), Dangerous (1991) and HIStory (1995). Died on June 25, 2009 of a cardiac arrest.

Monday, June 22, 2009

19 birthday

For those who wished my birthday on 21 june 09, a million thanks from me. for those wish through message, im so sorry for not reply your message. too busy with the party. but thanks anyhow *kiss*

dd episode
Dato Ahmad shabery cheek
(menteri belia dan sukan)
meea love
XO tyka
att muan
papa love
mama love
kimie love
xerarawr love
shoot love
tina madu
salwa love
fiq unisel
XO ashela
Hanna izzati
XO weyna
Isha Madu
acap classmate
abg din
Fiq kecik
Pecol classmate

Jan Ahmad Lavida
Apex acab
Emi rox
iskandar lensa
ayie farael
eddie jr
fajrul ain
nadia hanafi

sister love
kak d
kak connie

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Crazy Roomates

Last night, Fiqa meea and xera cant sleep. by the time pet met his boyfriend and she's not around. Bukan kami tabole tido, tapi bila sorang dah bercerita sorang lagi menambah dan mulalah sambung menyambung. tiba tibaa....

Fiqa: Korang aku teringin nak cakap camni do, 'ahaksz'. HAHAHA. korang tau sebab ape, kawan aku arif, dia memang cukup suka guna ayat ayat tu. aku pikir dah macam wempitzz mana la en. HAHA

Meea: HAHAHA, sudah la kau. ahakszz

Fiqa and Xera: HAHAHA

Fiqa: weh camni. aku rasa mcm malas nak pi class esok. ahakzz. aku penat gila, ahakzz. rasa nak quit je study, ahakzz.

Xera: HAHAHA, gelak ahakzz banyak kali. ahakz ahakz ahakz ahakz.

Meea: HAHAHAH, tido la weh esok class pagi. aku tumbuk korang kang kalau tak bangun pagi.




Meea:dah la weyhh, ahakzzz

we cant stop said ahakzz. bayangkan dari kol 12am nak tido and then cakap pasal benda tu je untill 3am. HAHAHA, we had a long long corversation that night and that really fun.

Take me to the heaven :)

ehem ehem. i want to describe about certain things. it might be happy story, it might be bored. but thanks to those who read my blog. and and i was suprised that afan which is my classmate keep read my blog. and he knew about afrokid. afan afan! thanks tau cause memahami my feelings. actually he told me. HAHA =p

Last sunday i went back to kak d's house. i did my assignment. this assignmentis like so fucking struggle because of i have to woke up at 6am and shoot the pictures and every 2 hours i have to shoot the same view. i have to do that untill 8pm. do you think its easy to do that? but thats the fact of studying. i have to face it.

moving on, last monday i did my assignment and suddenly i've got a sms.

Message: I LOVE YOU
Fiqa: eh kejap. sape nih?
Message: are you ain syafiqah?
Fiqa: yes i am. who are you? i didnt save your number at my phone.
Message: do you still remember my promises? i miss you alot.
Fiqa: who are you actually?
Message: Azeem Yasmin
Fiqa: *crying*

Message: you la segala dalam hidup i. im still here waiting for you. few weeks ago im get hit accident at sepang, pengsan and bila i sedar, you're the first girl in my mind i dont know why.im always pray to god that im gonna forget you, but i cant, i cant lie to myself, i cant lie to everybody. im sorry for what i've done to you.

Okay guys, if youguys did read my last last and last entry, you'll know the story goes. im waiting for him, really. i do regret my mistakes. now i think this is miracle.


lalala. sekarang fiqa dah tau sume teka teki about this afrokid. and ofcourse im glad. now, fiqa cam agak percaya pepatah yang berbunyi, setiap perbuatan yang kita lakukan mesti ada hikmahnya. bila bersabar dan membuat segala kebaikan, kita akan dapat benda yang baik. bukan nak cakap fiqa ni baik sangat.

For those who support me and keep heard my problems and my feelings especially kak lyn, faranadiyot, meea, xera, bee shoot, ainul, kamal, afar, i would like to say a million thanks.

back on track

Sunday, June 14, 2009

counting days

1 week to go huh? yes, im turning nineteen. am i deserves to be nineteen years old girl? well, i love for being nineteen. this year im not too excited about this birthday eventhough i'll make birthday party. but again, my brother taking care of that party. so do kak d. thanks to them. kamal said, yes pay attention to my study. yes i have to because im getting busy with those fucking assignments, class almost eveyery till night. T I R E D.

i've remember my last year birthday. i was too busy with cheerleading performance at pavilion. i've met few people and wish for my birthday by that time, i was with afrokid. he made speggati for me. i mean delicious speggati. i know this story so bored.

for this year birthday, i will take this opportunity for wish something that i could want for a long time. im not telling my wish, its my secret and its a wishh, i cant wait for 21 june. im not wish for the money, a goodgood life, being a best and beautiful girl, because i comfortable with myself now. fiqa oh fiqa, sudah la jangan merepek

clearly, my life are totally different between 2008 and 2009. i love 2007 and 2008 seriously. for this year, i am not enjoy too much. well bila fiqa berfikir balik, i advise to myself. fiqa you're big girl now. do something to make your life better. be tough okay fiqa, dont stress to much. i know you've got alot of problem, but itulaa lumrah hidup. always go up and down. that's the fact.

Fiqa fiqa fiqa.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Alertt! eleena came to unisel

i was suprised okayyy. that's was my first feeling when i saw her. im so happy because its been a long time i didnt met her. she was continue her study to uitm lendu and she came to unisel to joined studio lighting class. but sadly, encik nazrul cant attend the class because of his wife got BABYBOYY! congratulations encik nazrul. nanti kami bawak hadiah okayy (:

eleena yang kat tepi skali belah kanan tuh. comel kan dia? :)

Thursday, June 11, 2009

11 june 09

setiap kali 11 haribulan mesti terfikir sejenak, seketika, 11hb is my anniversarry with afrokid. well, what is done is done. i know i dont deserves him. but i'll pray for his happiness, whatever he do whatever he made, i'll happy. as long as he happy with his life.

i love when every 11hb comes. im happy although im not with him anymore. but that will be my greatest memories i've ever had. i love you always :)

much love,

Sunday, June 7, 2009

faking smile is so much easier than done

you said you'll accepet me if i return to you.

not because i've been dumped with other guy.

im just regret because i treat you like shit all this while,

i admit :(

im waiting for him

why you promise me that you'll always love me? when you know you're going to break it? why you promise me you'll always be there for me? when i know you've already broken your promise. i wonder if you realized yet what we could have been.

everyone tells me i should move on, to let it go. no one understand what we had, no one knows how im feeling. how with a couple of words you took the happiness in my life. you said you'd always love me. but in the end we split apart, we broke our promises.which is broke our heart. i still love you, i miss you and i love you again. you're everything anyone could ask for.

i let you go once. and that was the biggest mistake of my life. you're everything to me, and i just want one more chance to prove that to you :(

afrokid lover

when i was with him, he said he will remember me if he hear this song. after all, i miss him like so much.

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...