Retak

Bila hati dah punah, blog ni juga la yang jadi tempat meluahkan perasaan. bukan nak membangga dengan apa yang terjadi, tapi aku lebih selesa bila berkongsi dengan blog. never mind la.

Sekarang, rutin harian aku boleh dikatakan tak menentu. suka lari daripada masalah, lari daripada persekitaran yang penah dijadikan tempat bermadu kasih, bila dah ditinggalkan, ini la jadinya. lari tade hala tuju. baik aku duduk rumah makan pisang lagi bagus. hahahaha. bila orang dok tanya aku oke ke tak, takkan aku nak jawab tak oke en. nnt mula drama tangisan kat diri. kalau aku tak oke pun aku buatbuat oke. dah menjadi kebiasaan dalam diri bila dah set mind dlm diri aku. so aku harap sesapa yg gemar sangat menanya tu, paham2 dah la. bukan aku nak jadi hipokrit ke ape, tapi aku malas nak menangis pasal benda bodo je. dah tau kan lately life aku miserable tahap maxima punya. tatau la nak handle camne. ada korang yg suka buat aku happy, tapi suka sangat tanya pasal benda yang aku malas nak ingat, tak okay gak.

mungkin ada segelintir yang tak faham ape aku cerita ni (: senang cite aku diperbodohkan la. a guy that im in love for 2 years have dumped on me. bila suruh dia mengaku dia ade pompuan lain ke tak, dia jawab tade. ape salahnya kalau dia bitau or tinggalkan je aku awal2 kalau dah tak sayang. ni kantoi bodo nak buat aku sakit hati ape lancau sume. tipu la kalau aku cakap aku tak sakit hati. 2 tahun beb sayang aku kat kau. tapi tapela, benda dah jadi. aku redha, aku rela kalau itu yang buat kau happy dengan love life kau yang baru tuh. sebab bila dah sayang, mesti aku nak tgk kau happy even dah byk kali aku cakap aku tak sanggup tgk kau dengan pompuan lain. sebelum ni aku lepaskan kau atas sebab aku rasa kite bersama atas nama je, baik kau pi dengan dunia kau. tapi kau memberontak jugak, cakap aku curang la, aku ada laki lain la. sape yang buat perangai skang?

aku sedih kali ni pun bukan kau tinggalkan aku or kau dengan pompuan lain ke ape, itu aku dah tak kisah sangat, tapi aku sendiri sedih sbb aku takut aku tabole handle lagi life aku lepas ni. aku bergantung hidup aku kat kau je selama ni. bukan pasal duit, bukan pasal harta, tapi masa aku, life aku sume aku berpikir dengan kau je. dah kata sayang, 2 tahun hidup dengan kau. bila dah nekad nak hidup serious dengan kau, tapi ini yang aku dapat. sape mintak benda ni suma jadi. aku nak kebaikan dalam diri aku, sbb aku rasa kau sorang je yang aku harapkan utk bawak aku ke jalan yang betul.i see my whole future in your eyes. masing2 dah besar, dah bole pikir mana baik mana buruk. tapi cam aku cakap tadi, benda dah jadi, aku redha. makan pisang kat rumah lagi bagus.

sume manusia buat kesilapan. so do i. aku terlalu kerap sangat buat kesilapan. tapi menyayangi dia bukan satu kesilapan buat aku. im blessing for that. mungkin aku tak pandai nak menyayangi dia, atau tak cukup utk aku sayangkan dia, sampai dia boleh cari pengganti. dua tahun hidup bersama bermakna buat aku. maybe dia bosan, atau aku sendiri tak layak utk hidup dengan dia. susah senang hidup dengan dia dulu memang mengembirakan. tpi sume dah berubah atas kehendak dia. terpaksa aku redha.

kembali active

its been a long time i didnt post and update my blog. sorrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy (: here i am, with new fiqafiqon, been here to update all over again, about myself, around myself here and there and so on. please be concern to check out my blog okay. thanks for reading

Miss him again

After he going to PLKN, we rarely text or onthephone. he'll get his is phone on every saturday from his warden. and last saturday, we onthephone and before he called me he did texted me.


message
nyah, im going to call you tonight..NO EXCUSE.

I was so excited
i miss him, really

onthephone

fiqa: you buat ape?

afrokid: baring je. you tau tak nyah .... blablabla

after 15 minutes

Fiqa & afrokid :zZzZzZzZ during onthephone

after 45 minutes

sister: weh, handphone kau jatuh. kau onthephone ke ape? asal tido?

looked at my handphone

Fiqa: nyahh!!?

Afrokid: *silent*

Fiqa: goodnight syg, i love you mwahh

*hang up*

i dont know why i feel so like exhausted, but i miss onthephone with him. i'll be waiting for him.

*waiting*

the Memorial for Michael Jackson

Michael Joseph Jackson (born August 29, 1958) is an American recording artist, entertainer, and businessman. The seventh child of the Jackson family, he debuted on the professional music scene at the age of 11 as a member of The Jackson 5 and began a solo career in 1971 while still a member of the group. Referred to as the "King of Pop" in subsequent years, five of his solo studio albums have become some of the world's best-selling records: Off the Wall (1979), Thriller (1982), Bad (1987), Dangerous (1991) and HIStory (1995). Died on June 25, 2009 of a cardiac arrest.

19 birthday

For those who wished my birthday on 21 june 09, a million thanks from me. for those wish through message, im so sorry for not reply your message. too busy with the party. but thanks anyhow *kiss*

MESSAGE
Afrokid
dd episode
atuk
danial
idz
Dato Ahmad shabery cheek
(menteri belia dan sukan)
meea love
XO tyka
att muan
papa love
simon
afar
anip
mama love
kimie love
xerarawr love
shoot love
kroll
tina madu
dylla
salwa love
fiq unisel
XO ashela
Hanna izzati
adawiyah
Faranadiyot
XO weyna
Isha Madu
acap classmate
abg din
gabeh
butang
Fiq kecik
Pecol classmate


COMMENT
Bee
Jan Ahmad Lavida
Apex acab
amyrr
exat
Emi rox
iskandar lensa
asilah
ayie farael
azimah
faa
eddie jr
lena
fajrul ain
nadia hanafi


OTHER
issey
kamal
sister love
kak d
es
kak connie
apok
fida
ammar
shahril
zita
kyerul
wan
bull
jimmy
ob

Crazy Roomates

Last night, Fiqa meea and xera cant sleep. by the time pet met his boyfriend and she's not around. Bukan kami tabole tido, tapi bila sorang dah bercerita sorang lagi menambah dan mulalah sambung menyambung. tiba tibaa....


Fiqa: Korang aku teringin nak cakap camni do, 'ahaksz'. HAHAHA. korang tau sebab ape, kawan aku arif, dia memang cukup suka guna ayat ayat tu. aku pikir dah macam wempitzz mana la en. HAHA

Meea: HAHAHA, sudah la kau. ahakszz

Fiqa and Xera: HAHAHA

Fiqa: weh camni. aku rasa mcm malas nak pi class esok. ahakzz. aku penat gila, ahakzz. rasa nak quit je study, ahakzz.

Xera: HAHAHA, gelak ahakzz banyak kali. ahakz ahakz ahakz ahakz.

Meea: HAHAHAH, tido la weh esok class pagi. aku tumbuk korang kang kalau tak bangun pagi.

*silent*

Fiqa: AHAKKKKKZZZZZZ.

Meea and Xera: HAHAHAHAHAHA

Meea:dah la weyhh, ahakzzz

we cant stop said ahakzz. bayangkan dari kol 12am nak tido and then cakap pasal benda tu je untill 3am. HAHAHA, we had a long long corversation that night and that really fun.

Take me to the heaven :)

ehem ehem. i want to describe about certain things. it might be happy story, it might be bored. but thanks to those who read my blog. and and i was suprised that afan which is my classmate keep read my blog. and he knew about afrokid. afan afan! thanks tau cause memahami my feelings. actually he told me. HAHA =p


Last sunday i went back to kak d's house. i did my assignment. this assignmentis like so fucking struggle because of i have to woke up at 6am and shoot the pictures and every 2 hours i have to shoot the same view. i have to do that untill 8pm. do you think its easy to do that? but thats the fact of studying. i have to face it.


moving on, last monday i did my assignment and suddenly i've got a sms.

Message: I LOVE YOU
Fiqa: eh kejap. sape nih?
Message: are you ain syafiqah?
Fiqa: yes i am. who are you? i didnt save your number at my phone.
Message: do you still remember my promises? i miss you alot.
Fiqa: who are you actually?
Message: Azeem Yasmin
Fiqa: *crying*
Message: you la segala dalam hidup i. im still here waiting for you. few weeks ago im get hit accident at sepang, pengsan and bila i sedar, you're the first girl in my mind i dont know why.im always pray to god that im gonna forget you, but i cant, i cant lie to myself, i cant lie to everybody. im sorry for what i've done to you.


Okay guys, if youguys did read my last last and last entry, you'll know the story goes. im waiting for him, really. i do regret my mistakes. now i think this is miracle.

OMG FIQA, YOU'RE SO EXCITED.

lalala. sekarang fiqa dah tau sume teka teki about this afrokid. and ofcourse im glad. now, fiqa cam agak percaya pepatah yang berbunyi, setiap perbuatan yang kita lakukan mesti ada hikmahnya. bila bersabar dan membuat segala kebaikan, kita akan dapat benda yang baik. bukan nak cakap fiqa ni baik sangat.


For those who support me and keep heard my problems and my feelings especially kak lyn, faranadiyot, meea, xera, bee shoot, ainul, kamal, afar, i would like to say a million thanks.

back on track
afrokid