sleepover

ohh, last week , i told youguys about sleeepover thingy at shela's place. this is what we have done during sleepover. enjoy :)

haha

ashela comel en :)

ni kawasan indon selalu lepak =p

day 3.

day 2

this is show how much she love me. i love you syg :)

online time. tu kaki shela

wooot woot.

not interested any guys =(

yes, so fucked up. not interested any guys. maybe im turn into lesbian, or bisexual indeed. dah bye.

no more story life

perit je hati bila nak blog pasal benda ni. tapi sini jela yang paham i. bila hati dah hancur berkecai. mungkin semua kawan faham and mengerti semua masalah i dan ada jugak memberi support. well thank you so much. but tak kesemuannya akan memahami. i berharap jugak yang 'sidia' akan faham isi hati i. tapi terpulang la ye.

bila hidup sorang2 tanpa teman hidup setelah tinggalkan i, rasa macam kucar kacir je hidup. rasa macam sunyi je hidup. but doesnt mean i cant breath without 'him' . susah kot, setahun dua bulan masa yang agak lama. bila family dah kenal each other, bila dah berkongsi kasih sayang suma, dengan kenangan masa silam. peritttttt :(

sekarang, biar jelas nyata kat sini yang i betul tade afrokid dalam hidup. semua tu dah tinggal kebelakang, atas dasar keputusan i sendiri, sakit atau frustrated camne pun, ini adalah terbaik. ini untuk kebaikan masing2. dengan nama tuhan sebelum ni, tak pernah sekali pun i rasa nak cari laki lain, untuk dipasangkan, untuk diduakan. berkoba2 diri untuk menjaga hati, sanggup luka hati diri sendiri untuk kepentingan dia, menegakkan dia sebagai teman hidup. tapi apa yang dia balas? boleh la dia kata cinta, boleh la dia kata sayang, tapi hati ? tak cukup pada satu.

pernah diberitahu aku menjadi teman dia hanya la untuk bebankan dia. aku menyusahkan dia, aku tak beri kerjasama. bila benda macam ni dah berlaku, mula lah cari kesalahan aku. mula dia maki hamun aku. tapi ape boleh buat, aku tetap sayang. *aku maafkan dia* aku kusut bile memikir ape salah aku bila sanggup tinggalkan aku semata2 untuk orang lain.

disini, aku bukan meraih simpati atau apa sekali pun, tapi susah untuk melihat orang yang paling aku sayang pergi dan berseronok. aku berdoa sangat sangat agar kau bahagia dengan ape keputusan kau buat.

*no more love, no more fight, no more laugh, no more cry, no more tarik janggut (quite funny, but i did to him), no more rossi, no more superbike, no more his hair, last but not least, no more AFROKID :( i still syg dia. may god bless him. amin~*

thank you.

start from today, yes i open with new chapter and close for old chapter. i have no boyfriend. he dumped me. okay, im not telling about details. but may god bless him with his new girl. happy ? tuhan je la tau bile rasa kena tipu. sedih ? tidak jugak. i have my friends for always support me, i have my own family.

cakap pasal family plak, ohh my dad made his decision to marry with new girl. best en ? fakofff la. asal la laki camni *chill fiqa*. tak marah mana pun, but hey may god bless bless you both. afrokid, papa. thanks for everything okay. *smile*

vacation =p

this is our plan. with who? let me story first. tengah dok tengok my lil brother play his guitar jap lagi datang plak message.

*from ashela;
b, 22december ni free tak ?
fiqa : why b?
ashela: ingatkan nak ajak you pegi kuantan. abah ade meeting kat sana. kite pergi on monday and back on wednesday. plus you boleh rileks and hilangkan masalah you dengan airis.
*terharu gile time tu. sebab she knows that i've problems.thanks ashela. i love you so much.*
fiqa: okay let me ask papa first okay :)

*text papa;
papa, ingat tak masa kawan angah ajak tido kat bangi tuh, parents dia ajak pegi kuantan on 22 dec. can i follow them pa ?
papa: for what sayang? please ask shela's mom to call papa okay.
fiqa: cun tadehal.

*text shela;
syg, can you ask ibu to call papa *give papa's number* papa tak percaya kot yang i nak ikut you pi holiday. HAHAHA.
Ashela : ohh okay nanti ibu call. crdt ibu tade ni. yeah
*then we gossip about secret things.this is our secret. im sorry. im not telling.

*text papa;
Papa, nanti mak ashela call sbb crdt dia tada katanyaaa.
papa : okay, kang pegi sana papa kasi rm10 je okay?
fiqa : alaa, rm10 makan kat tepi highway, patu dah habis. kat sana kang makan pasir. :(
*padahal pikir duit rokok sume en. hahahaha, tak klaka.
papa : okay, papa upkan another 5bucks.HAHAHAHA

amboi gelak besar orang tua ni. HAHAA.but i love you daddy.

text shela;
syg, i rasa i dapat pegi kot. papa macam kasi greenlight je, haha. confident lebeh. and we continue our secret things. hihihi.

Listen here, KUANTAN HERE WE COME. WE VAIN, MANDI LAUT, WE EAT SEAFOOD, STAY UP AT HOTEL, and MORE okayyyy ;ppp insyallahh.

para mabuk yang handal

cerita ini bukan la rekaan semata2, i ni adalah kebenaran dan teliti cerita ini sebab agak takut gak la dengar en. ni asalnya cerita dari paparock tersayang. nak or tanak percaya, terpulang la.

papa said his friends was dead yesterday morning. dia kata kelmarin papa pegi hard rock bersama kawan2 dia. ala biasa la en, hidup orang dewasa, party habis laaa. HAHA. minum2 air mahal tuh *ish ish ish* jap lagi selesai sudah party tu dengan segala mabuk baik punyaa, one of papa's friends like drunk gile babi la en, plus he's drive. he's alone. so he tak larat tu drive his car, he sleep in his car.

yesterday morning papa got the news from other friends that papa's friends who drunk yesterday is dead. why? because he have no oxygen. okay lemme explain this, dia tak bukak, enjin terbukak, aircond jugak terbukak. bila dah drunk, he need more oxygen to breath. Allah love him more. pray hard for allahyarham~

moral of the story is, tak kisah pun kalau nak jadi pemabuk terhandal kat malaysia, just make sure to be safe always, and better stop for your sake. just love yourself and please prepare something if you want to get drunk. this is not joke , i am serious. seelok2nya suruh sesiapa perhatikan kamu jika hendak mabuk okay :)

*AL-FATIHAH*

i dont have any boyfriend, get it?

terkejut en? benda aku sendiri yang buat keputusan. reasons ? tak perlu la kemukakan sebab tapi ini atas dasar pihak ketiga. dia lebih memilih pihak ketiga, so i just let him go. oh orang kate, eleh nanti 2 or 3 hari lagi couple balik. itu orang cakap la. dulu boleh macam tuh, sayang punya pasal en. tapi for real, this time im not accept him anymore. this is my decision.

rasa diperbodohkan bila kena tipu, bila dipermainkan dia rasa dia bagus plus dia rasa dia tak cukup satu perempuan. aku seperti lurus bendul ikut arahan ikut telunjuk dia, jadi cam bodo bile aku dengar je cakap dia sampai tanak kasi dia sakit hati, well ini tindakan paling bodoh aku penah korbankan untuk laki.

dulu, aku boleh kasi muka dekat kau sebab aku rasa aku tabole hidup tanpa kau, aku rasa aku dah tabole sayang orang lain. sebab tu kau rasa diri kau bagus sampai kau boleh kuasa diri aku segala ape yang aku buat, semua kau yang tentukan, Mulai dari saat ni, aku bebas buat ape2 dan aku tade kena mengena dengan kau. aku dah cakap, no more chances after kau buat hal lepas ni. now you're free afrokid. kau bebas hidup dengan pihak ketiga kau tuh. aku dah takkan ade kena mengena. aku terlalu bodoh, sanggup sakit hati sebab kau. aku silap. kau pergi, dan aku takkan terima kau lagi okay?

IM FREE NOW. I CAN DO WHATEVER I LIKE.

i miss my zaman purba ;p

this is roe or rodok. HAHAHA. i miss her so badly. we are like glue since we at bbgs in standard one. till now, we are bestfriend. like serioushit, i love her.

2006 picture when i was in form 4. this is my old group. py,mea,tkay, and roe.

this is meea. lucky us because we still futher our study at same university. UNISEL and same course. it was unplan because we have problem since we at school before. now we are close. and shit, i love her :)

this is part of our routine. chit chat here and there, sleep, text,eat, onthephone,mp3, laughing gas. HAHAHAAH ;)

again, we :)

i love them :)

hahaha, i told youguys :)

this is att. my 'senior' at unisel. she's taking mass com semester three. well att, i dont care laaa. imma big girl aswell. tak takut plak aku dengan kau kat unisel. HAHAH. sayang kau lebih weyhhh ;pp

conclusion is, this is my old days and i miss that so strong. if i have chance to come back school, i will do so. aku rindu koop, kantin, library and toilet aswell. sume la aku rindu :(

SMK SERI BINTANG UTARA (2003-2007)
*WE ARE THE BEST*

fallin love, oh (:

i bet youguys know who is he, but he is so damn adorable. why? oh man, look at his face. HAHA. jatuh hati sial. i do like him since afrokid said about him and before his whatever you like song was popular. at first im just ohh yeke, ohh oke, ohh dia tu ke. but serious fuck, i love him so much. i did heard afrokid sang whatever you like song 2 or 3 days ago, but hell, jatuh hati dekat boyfriend sendiri do. HAHA. nyah, you ingat en you nyanyi lagu ni while i tarik you punya janggut. that is why i pandang you like lama gile. HAHAHAHA . i love you syg, and i love you T.I.

*Be my sugardaddy jom. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHA ;))

1 year 2 months anniversarry

i almost forgot for this entry. this is so important to me. and it shows to everyone how much i love him. HAHAHA,* jewang gilerrr do ;)

*Happy OneYearTwoMonths Anniversarry*
11Disember08
(clapclap)

To azeem yasmin, i dont have any ways to show you that i love you. i sastify with my own ways, even you told me that im just give you a burden(s). so im sorry, im apprieciate what you have told me.Oh crap, azeem yasmin is afrokid. dont ask me again. im still with him and I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND :)

confused

i dont really understand what happen to this one girl, she always read my blog and i know tak salah, but hey, i dont even know you. where are you from. you came into me and my boyfriend's life, and texted my boyfriend like hello, get your own life. boyfriend aku asyik marah aku pasal kau. kau buat ape kat dia? and i dont understand exactly whats the fucking point are you to read my blog? do you have your own life ? aku benci kau seriously sebab aku penah break dengan boyfriend aku pasal kau. well, please move your ass and stay away from my boyfriend. to my boyfriend, i dapat tau something from youguys, you dengan pompuan tuh aku bunuh. aku cakap betul.

tamparan hebat

*apepun, cerita ini tiada kena mengena yang hidup atau yang mati. ini adalah fakta yang hendak dibincangkan dan tidak ada yang melibatkan sesiapa selain diri fiqa sendiri. harap maklum.

ni yang aku terfikir sejenak bile insan tersayang tak suka certain things yang aku buat. Pssst, i dapat balik afrokid i. hihihihi. well, ade certain things aku rasa aku nak berubah bile pikir aku ni dah besar. iyela, ape yang afro cakap kat aku sebenarnya semuanya betul. tapi tak kesemuanya lah. camni la biar aku kasitau sini.

banyak kali laaa afrokid tanya aku, ape yang aku buat dekat luar sana bile tiap sabtu je mesti kluaaaa. mesti kluaa. first mesti la aku macam nak pertahankan diri macam bagi dia aku klua just nak popular nak hot, nak kasitau satu dunia la yang aku ada kawan2 dekat situ ade kawan ramai suma . dia pun jenis tak suka. tapi itu bukan tujuan aku sebenarnya. aku dari dulu suka buat strategi sebelum apepun benda yang aku lakukan. contohnya, aku hendak kluaa sabtu ni dengan ashela tyka virginie, amoi sume. dari aku bertolak ke rumah, sampai aku pulang dari hangout dengan kawan2 aku, bererti aku ingin seronok bersama dengan kawan2 aku.

tidak dinafikan lagi la, bahawa kalau kite kluaa je, nampak budak2 bajet hot berkeliaran sana sini, bajet cantik bajet handsome sume, tapi itu life dorang and nothing with me. cuma aku kesian la tengok fenomena sekarang ni, hidup umpama nak tunjuk satu dunia yang dia itu adalah terbaik . well , ape dah jadi skarang eh ?

afrokid membuat aku terpikir bila aku kluaa hanyaa buangkan duit tiap2 minggu dengan tambang, rokok, makanan, sisha, ape2 barang la yang aku beli tiap2 minggu. aku disedarkan yang aku bukannya dari keluarga yang berada. tapi itulaaa, bila aku terpikir balik , macam budak2 je kluaaa . aku cuba cari jalan penyelasaian. tapi sekarang dalam prosesan sedang memikir. aku akan berubah di mase yang kelak, bagi kebaikan sume kerana aku tidak mahu memburukkan diri aku lagi dari pandangan mata masyarakat.

best en aku mencarut, tapi ini sume apa yang tesimpan dalam hati :)

selamat hari raya aidiladha

7.45pm ; bila dengar takbir raya, sedih do hati. baru teringat esok nak raya. but most of all, i will like take this apportunity to say that Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha for all muslims. have a blast raya. and tatap la muka lembu korang arini puas2 yeah :)

YEAY YEAY ESOK RAYAAAA :)

actually tak rasa ape pun raya tahun ni. sama je macam tahun2 sebelum ni. tapi tulaa, mama masak nasi minyak for sedara2 sume. hihi.here the list. things i should do. pffftttt -_______-

*Kemas rumah
*Gosok baju raya. should i ?
* tolong mama masak
* GUITAR HERO BABY WITH MY BROTHER :))))

HAHA, JERKKK. supposed to do something else. but hey, i dont care. later peeps :)

cant wait

hihihi, this is my activity for this wednesday. 10december 08, im off to bangi stay for couple of days at ashela's place. this is her special request or punishment for not attend her makan2. so yeah, i will face it . so i hope i really have fun with ashela, his brother izzat, ibu and her father. furthermore, i will hangout with ashela and others the same day. i hope i can meet youguys there. ohh im going out to bb or pavillion alright :)

toodles,
*fiqa :)

special for Ashela :)

first of all, i am sorry for the things i've done. im not a good sister to taking care of you, to give you full attention, to meet you, Everything ashela everything. i am sorry.
i am sorry for not attended your makan makan at your place. rushing kot i. from mallaca, i kena naik bas, try cari ticket yang paling awal, tapi sume pukul 5. my sister punya exam pun habis lambat, then hujan lagi. i wanted to call you, but im afraid :( i tau you marah dekat i. tak reply message. but you have right to do so. serious im sorry. i sampai kl pukul 8 dengan puduraya jam. i mintak maaf sangat2. i nak jumpa ibu sekali. please say sorry to ibu. i break my promise. im sorry im sorry, im sorry. please forgive me :(

MILLION OF SORRY ASHELA. ily :)

apology

IM SORRY, AZEEM YASMIN :(

is it mean to give up?

How can I fight, if I don’t know what am I fighting for? How can I move on, if I don’t know what to leave behind? How can I say that it is over, if it is never started? How can I say I am hurting, if my heart is numb all over? How can I fight, if I don’t know the worth of fighting for? If it is useless, because everything seem so unfair? How can I move on, if I hesitate to step forward?
Instead, rather choose to hurt and stay behind.


Is it mean to give up? When the whole world is in the other side? Is it mean to give up? If others’ feel that, you will only hurt. Is it mean to give up? If the pain in your heart never stop? Is it mean to give up? Although in your heart, you know you can’t live without.

ILoveYouStill,
Afrokid :(

cry

I am not crying because you said no. I am not crying because I feel used. I am not crying because I made a drunken mistake. But I am crying because of you!. I’m crying because I said some horrible things to you. I’m crying because I shouldn’t have ever told you. I’m crying because we have not spoken since. I’m crying because I miss you .But most of all the reason why I am crying. Is because before you were there to help me stop. But now you’re gone you’re not.And it makes me cry even more.

Aku nak dia balik :(

*yang pakai baju putih tuh*

boleh tak aku nak afrokid balik ? boleh? aku rindu sangat kat dia do. dia tinggalkan aku dah :( asal haa, dia tinggalkan aku. asal dia tak stay je? asal haa ?

make it serious, seriously, i want him back. so much i want him back. please syg :( my world is nothing without you. i dah tatau ape lagi i nak buat. every single thing, mesti ade memory dengan you. kenapa you tinggalkan i ?

AKU NAK DIA BALIK ? BOLEH?

Last satuday

sabtu lepas agak best laa klua. i met some people, myspacers, new friends. agak best laaa.

this is yaya skyes from dejavu. at last, i met her. serious dia tinggi dari i. hello dia baru form 2 kot dah tinggi dari i. malu :(

tyka sumpah klaka gile time ni. kes ketiak dah berkolam menunggu rooftop kosong. HAHAHA ;pp

pompuan ni dah lama tak jumpa. amoi love. baru skang dapat bergambar dia. syg i love you. mwahh :)

ni dia baby lagi sorang. ashela. dia la empunya camera aritu. dah ade dslr siottt. dah jadi photographer. gilaa laa. i love syg :)

dah bosan punya pasal.

retarded sungguh :)

muka crack

last but not least, atiliatwinnie :)

ciggaretes

Di suatu malam, bila nak dijadikan cerita, aku hisap rokok yang baru dibeli oleh afrokid di ruang tamu sambil menonton television. sesudah selesai, kembali ke kamar ~sleeeeeppppppppppppp -________________-

1.30PM esoknyaa...

Tengah ym ym dengan si ainol firdaus ni, tibatiba teringatkan sesuatu. ? ? ? ? ? ?

MANA ROKOK AKU EH?
AKU LETAK MANA DO?

FUCKK!! DEKAT DEPAN.

*bukak pintu bilik. papa tengah tido. tv tengok dia. bukan dia tengok tv.*
so aku pun cari la rokok kat atas meja, ade terselit dekat tepi botol sisha. fine pegi la amik that time. tapi sumpah mcm klaka gile kot. dah la jalan mcm nak mencuri, pastu, sanggup tawaf satu jalan yang jauh supaya tanak bagi papa sedar. and that time, amik rokok sama itu lighter.

part ni best skitt ......

aku kasi goyang itu kotak rokok, jap lagi dengar macam rokok tu ke kiri ke kanan. (celaka rokok tinggal skit kot). suddenly....
Papa : buat ape tu ngah?
Fiqa : amik rokok airis nih. abah ade hisap ke tadi?
Papa : ha'ah. *sambung tido*

OKAY, IM HOT HERE. HAHAHA. siot betul papa boleh habiskan rokok aku. but its okay.
i love you dad ;pp