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Last Day of internship :(

2011-03-02T01:26:00.003+08:00

Last 28 february, was my last day of internship. honestly to say that tempat tu memang membosankan, but i've got alot of memories there. the bosses, the staffs, the jokes. first day je boss ajak makan ayam penyet. dapat angpau from mr richard. mr richard pnya ayat selaluu cakap fucker, the way he tell his story to others, the song of iron maiden from mr syaz, the loving couple there, jumi and mie. what else? damn everything about syazri design i miss :( kenapa rasa macam nak nangis? this 2 months mesti je ada update kt twitter, like serious, jumi pny hal, encik syaz, encik ringgo and everything. sume pasal dorang. i wish youguys very good luck and moga2 dapat job yang lebih banyak so that korang bole cepat kaya kan :) love youguys till death. thanks for giving me a apportunity to being there.

the office. and you see there, it's mr richard, vice president :)

syazri design :(

ini la mini coops encik syaz. memang menjadi bahan perbualan

bell before going out the door. kena tekan tu :)

last day :( kaca mata time ni bila nak tinggalkan syazri design. im gonna miss you really :(

cerita tentang kita :)

2011-03-02T00:47:00.000+08:00

this is for you. this lovely song. i love you, still. :(

Tears

2011-02-28T15:09:00.002+08:00

I can cry when i hear this song all over again. the lyrics, the song, the melody, unstable feelings right now. i miss you :(

F.M this is for you :)

2011-02-28T12:49:00.001+08:00

I know it's not enough to say I'm wrong
You know that I will miss you now you're gone
I know it's not your life to see this through
Just know that in my heart, it beats for you
So leave a little note for me behind
I swear I have to know the reasons why
This won't survive

But if you fall back into my life
I'd spend every night waking up to the beat I hear inside
Telling me to be your only one

But if you fall back into my life
I promise you I would never let another day just pass us by
I could never leave this world undone
I want to be your only one
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/a/amber_pacific/fall_back_into_my_life.html ]
And now it's not the same with you away
Just holding onto hope to save my days
I won't survive
So just stay with me tonight, and try

But if you fall back into my life
I'd spend every night waking up to the beat I hear inside
Telling me to be your only one

But if you fall back into my life
I promise you I would never let another day just pass us by
I could never leave this war unsung
I want to be your only one

But if you fall back into my life
I'd spend every night waking up to the beat I hear inside
Telling me to be your only one

But if you fall back into my life
I promise you I would never let another day just pass us by
I could never leave this world undone
I could never leave this war unsung
I want to be your only one

Internship

2011-02-27T23:15:00.003+08:00

from secondary school to high school and now college and internship as well :)

meet kak intan and syazri

Oh Im Back

2011-02-27T22:48:00.002+08:00

Hello people, oh crap, it's been a while kan tak post blogspot. confirm berhabuk. haha, anyways ramai yang tanya pasal blog i, you know like, hey fiqa bila nak update blog. and i tak sangka certain people macam ikut my blog semua. thanks alot. The main reason i didnt update my blog just because i've been busy with my internship. okay we can talk about this later yeah. what else yeah? oh i have no time with blog even tumblr twitter and all that stuff pun dah jarang buka. so i will tell youguys my life right here right now.

Let's start new again. Hai i am Syafiqah Razip, 21 this twenty eleven, still in diploma photography and im gonna finish my studies in this year, insyallah. This time so far, i've been busy with my internship. Tempat tu dekat Syazri Design, Mutiara Damansara. internship i 2months. tomorrow will be going my last day of course. after that, im gonna have final project for last semester. About Syazri Design, they more to design, and graphic. Small company but they do have lodsa job in graphic. I've got 4 bosses, which is, Mr richard, Mr Yus, Mr Syazri and Mr Saiful Nizam. they have 3 permenant staffs, Kak Jumi, Kak Intan and Emi. Nak kata seronok pun tak, Nak kata boring pun tak, i've got experience, but im not satisfied with my internship. But im glad im gonna finish that, really.

After Intership, i will do my Final project for final semester. memang susah and memang kena kerja masa, kena cari bajet, kena cari model, kena sketch and everything. itu yang kena all out for my studies. final project tu kalau tak buat betul or last minute memang sia sia laa kan pergi belajar, but hopefully youguys can pray hard for me and final project. hehehe.

Last but not least, my love life. I've got no boyfriend. I dengan My ex boyfriend faisol mustafa are no longer together. tak lama, baru je 19th february 2011. we been together just 1 year 2 months je. and now we are no more. i cant tell youguys why, but maybe this is the best for two of us. i really frust for what happened, but im just let it go. until now God knows how i feel everyday, when i love someone, gone. I try to make this normal, but no one could ever replace him. that's the promise :)

i will update and im gonna activate this account. thank you for your support and may god bless youguys, toodles :)

Celebration

2010-12-28T00:46:00.000+08:00

1st year anniversarry :)

28Dec2010

*hugs

away

2010-12-15T16:46:00.004+08:00

Hey followers, im here to say that im gonna away from blogspot, facebook and tumblr. so i guess im not update any blog for a moment, so do facebook and tumblr. but you can follow me through twitter. just add me ; syafiqahrazip. twit me if anything okay and oh, i'll follow your twitter back.

there are some reason why i've been doing this. i am sorry, but i'll be back very sooooooon. oh twitter i can't away because twitter is the best cyberworld for me now. haha. so, do follow my twitter okay :D

.

2010-12-15T02:40:00.001+08:00

JATUH TERDUDUK, AGAIN.

tertunggu tunggu

2010-12-15T00:56:00.002+08:00

kebahagiaan aku ada pada kau.

aku cuba mencari kebahagiaan lain, tapi tak sama dengan kebahagiaan yang kau bagi.

menyesal pun tak guna, mungkin aku silap langkah.

menunggu menunggu menunggu.

kebahagiaan aku terletak pada kau, bukan pada orang lain.

itu adalah salah satu punca aku tak berani nak bagi sayang aku dekat orang lain.

quote of the day

2010-12-13T05:26:00.000+08:00

Every time I trust somebody, they show me why I shouldn't.

my mistakes now, admit.

deal deal

2010-12-13T05:00:00.003+08:00

Don't give any hopes with anyone.

probably that person will push you to love him back, but actually you don't.

hold on for second. Okay this time i need to explain in a bit here and there. actually after all things messed up, i told already, i'm not interested with any kind of relationships. i told ya, i'm not interested at all. But what happened? you push me. you ask me to love you back. LET ME TELL THE TRUTH, i try to move on, to get a better life, to let people who loves me, love me. but I CAN'T. can you get it? i still love my old times. i still love him. even i've got another relationship, but that relationship are all bullshits! i thought we were just friends. but u bumb me into your love life which is i can't return it back. i am so much down here for few months. i still can't move on. And please don't ask me to love you back because i can't replace him. enough said.

pet pot pet pot. No idea.

2010-12-13T04:49:00.002+08:00

When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to only remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. I hear ur name sometimes, but when I turn around to see who it is, I'm alone. Then I realized that it's my heart telling me that I miss u.You grab my attention when you walk into the room I am in. It could be midnight and I'll still be thinking of you. Fuck, i really hate this. the day will comes. should i shoot my head or eat pills so that i can sleep for one whole day. day by day, it closer, closer closer. fuck i hate this.

SINGLE; 2 WEEKS. :|

2010-12-13T03:42:00.002+08:00

LOVELY. I need that kinda guy who understands & even when he's with his boys, he still says "baby, hold my hand" ♥ hold on hold on. i think this is not the time i could fallin love again. enough with this stage. totally trauma and yet, i should fix myself, do what i need to do, and most important thing, this is my mistake. sometimes being stupid, i admit. but this is real life. day by day, im standing strong, live with myself alone, do alone, happy alone, sad alone. i couldnt careless. because something i did wrong, it makes me fix my mistakes all over again. i dont mind if this is my journey, i'll accept everything with pleasure.

Godskitchen 2010

2010-12-06T16:35:00.003+08:00

hey followers. anyways last saturday, 4dec 2010, went to sepang with my party peoples. hell yeah godskitchen there. the party is fucking awesome and hujan plak time tu. memang syiok ah. dengan lazer and lagu dia koyak habis! hahaha. lotsa people i met on that day. dylla and darby, abg din, amad, hakim, shameen, and bo. thanks for the day. and by the time kasi all out punyaa la, gentle cakap. chuckie, sander van doorn and richard durrand terbaik, especially main lagu always the sun. hehe. but richard, you spoil my party okay bila last lagu tutup camtu je. haish! but overoll best. and thanks to bo for being my partner that night. i had fun with ya!

really my partner people :D

sister my best crime partner

the stage.

Kata Kau

2010-12-06T09:13:00.001+08:00

BLOG AKU SUKA HATI AKU LA!

TUMBLR AKU SUKA HATI AKU LA!

FACEBOOK AKU SUKA HATI AKU LA!

KAU SAPA NAK BISING2?

TAK LARI LA GF KAU TU.

AKU TAK SURUH DIA STALKER AKU PUNYA PROPERTY.

KAU JAGA ELOK2 DAH AH. KECOH SANGAT!!

Lelong lelong

2010-12-03T09:57:00.001+08:00

I miss this, i miss tenggol, i miss diving. oh by the time im watching Him while he's diving. -,-

kudos for siqiqi

2010-12-03T02:15:00.002+08:00

Pemainanku skrg senang, no relationship, befriend who cud give me benefits. Relationship is bullshits. Love is illusions. Happiness is money

mistake

2010-12-02T22:16:00.001+08:00

This time i really made a wrong decision. silly me.

2010-12-02T18:57:00.000+08:00

I'm not feeling exactly happy. I don't really feel sad too. Sometimes I don't know how I feel and I'm telling

-,-

2010-12-02T18:41:00.000+08:00

You will always be a part of my life. A happy memory, a good laugh, a tear or two. I won't ever forget you.

quotation

2010-12-02T14:19:00.001+08:00

People are in your life for a reason so don’t ever regret something if it once made you the happiest person in the world.

another cyberworld

2010-12-01T17:54:00.004+08:00

Well, this is my new, oh not so new actually. It's another Cyberworld of mine, Tumblr.com. I would love to post something which is my dream, my imagination and my feelings in this cyberworld. and I love my tumblr anyways. please do follow me if you have one. Mine is Syafiqahrazip.tumblr.com. Enjoy.

life

2010-12-01T17:35:00.001+08:00

Sometimes you just need someone who'd make you smile when you're sad, someone who'd look forward to seeing you everyday, someone who'd call you every night, someone who'd say I love you and mean it.

speech for today

2010-12-01T02:34:00.002+08:00

I love you for your kindness, And your understanding heart, The one that, somehow always says "I love you very much" I love you for your faith in me. Your sweet and patient ways, For the many things you do. So often without praise. I love you for all these things and for the million others too. But most of all, For what i am whenever im with you. I love you Bee. *hugs

good times!

2010-12-01T02:21:00.004+08:00

Haha, a day to remember. my day with loved ones! planned so last minute till we set the date for us. but seriously, the day was awesome and i miss that, really. So its like monday, when att asked me for a favor, looking for the job. i remember when one of my friend, aei told me the place he been working now needs people who need job. so here goes. went to pavilion and met his manager to pass the resume. that day me, att, fasha and haiqal been there. so we had fun together, lotsa gossip, story till laugh to death and bahan membahan, itu sudah menjadi perkara wajib. hehehe. love youguys :)

att, fasha and me :)

lovely att.

kerja att!

me and fasha

i love them, seriously.

me and sepet fasha!

beautiful girl in my life.

Its you! yes, I miss

2010-12-01T01:32:00.002+08:00

everything about you i miss. your laugh, your conversation, your hugs, your dance, everything baby, everything. I promise I'll be good with you, every single time. Thanks for your love. i apprieciate it much. Love you =]

Hello December

2010-12-01T01:15:00.000+08:00

PLEASE BE GOOD WITH ME.

Yunus Razip forever my brother

2010-12-01T00:49:00.002+08:00

Me; how's Surabaya Bro?

Adik; Happy and fun, I miss it.

Me; upload your pics! am so jelouse

Adik; why you jelouse?

Me; because you went to Surabaya and im so jelouse. haha! i miss you!

Adik; abah said you very lonely when i'm not here. I miss you too.

Me; you're so sweet. wait for me to get home. im so fucking miss you :(

Adik; okay. when you get home here, we going crazy okay

Me; sure boy! we dance till death.

Adik; okay. we krump, locking, popping, anything. be safe there, xx.

Me; :')

THAT'S WHY I LOVE HIM

No title

2010-11-30T12:31:00.002+08:00

Moving Foward, Not looking backward.

Him and her

2010-11-30T01:24:00.002+08:00

Crying crying crying

Him & her

HAPPY.

Finally, he got his new life.

Titik.

2010-11-29T23:24:00.002+08:00

Fuck all of you. ALL OF YOU.

im just fucked up with myself.

please, Go away.

letter for You, Boyfriend

2010-11-28T03:59:00.004+08:00

Dear Bee,

I want you to know that since the day we met I've fallen deeply in love with you. There are no words to express the gratitude I feel in my heart that you came into my life, and how you make every day so special. You are my life, my heart, my soul.

You are my best friend, my one true love, my one and only. I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll love you more tomorrow than I do today.

Loving you is the only thing that makes life worth living. Day by day, my love for you becomes overwhelming, and I can't handle it when I don't see or even talk to you every day.

A day without you in my life is like a day without sunshine, a day without food, or a day without air. I need you when I’m cold to keep me warm; I need you in the rain to keep me dry; I need you in my life to keep me happy. You make me feel wonderful. You give me strength when I just can't carry on and I truly treasure that. Every moment spent together is another one of my dreams coming true.

I apologize straight from the heart for ignoring you whenever you make an attempt to make me feel better after our pointless arguments. I know I overreact a lot, and I'm sorry. I‘m ashamed of how I treat you and I'm sorry I've been so moody lately.

I'm afraid I'll say something to make you forget the feelings you have for me when I mention your past too much and bring up stupid things. I'm worried you won‘t want me anymore. I know I can make you mad, but I promise you that this is all going to change because I love you with everything I have.

I was scared to love you at first, out of fear that you would hurt me, but I did and it’s the best thing I’ve ever done. Now, the only fear I have is waking up and realizing it’s all a dream.

You are the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. Each moment that you and I spend together is so magical that I catch myself smiling for no reason at all.

I thought that I would never find a love that is as strong as ours, but now that we've found each other I know that you are the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, the person I want to marry, the person I want to have babies with, and the person I want to grow old with.

Bee, you complete me. You make my life so amazing and I don't know how else to repay you but to love you just as much as you love me. The world is a better place to be because of you.

You make me feel beautiful. Thank you for giving me so much more than I ever could have wanted. I am so thankful for what we have, and for everything we will have. You are the only man I ever want to share my life with. I could never imagine what it would be like if we were to lose each other. I don't even want to think about it. All I want to think of is you.

You are the love of my life. I love you, and I always will until the day I die. Hopefully, when that day comes, I will still have you by my side and yours will be the last face that I see.

When we’re older with a family and home of our own, we’ll look back at the ways we argued about things that were so insignificant and we’ll laugh and know that our love was strong enough to overcome every argument. I just want you to know that I'm thankful that you came into my life and I will love you till the end of my days. My love for you will never fade, I’m still crazy about you, bee.

xx, fiqa.

Good, hard and bad times!

2010-11-28T01:34:00.003+08:00

I have to say that nowadays, me and my boyfriend have a lot of things need to settle. bad good hard smooth, and everything, especially my boyfriend. so much things he been through with his works, with his problem with this and that. yang paling marahnya, dia ni tak suka share problem even his boss said so. but eventho he got his own problem he trying to make others feel happy. Yesterday we went to pavi with loved ones. i saw his face. muram, banyak kerut kat dahi, termenung. Only God knows how does he feel now. lotsa problems. suddenly;

Me: Bee, sini kejap nak cakap skit.

Bee: Ape dia

Me: *whisper* I love you b. buang sikit kerut kat dahi tu. nampak buruk.

Bee: b okay la.

Me: No you're not. bby nampak b pikir masalah. jgn pikir sangat

Bee: *hold my hand*

Me: im here for you syg, anytime, every single time.

Bee: nasib baik jumpa bby. atleast tade la sedih sangat.

God knows how much i love him.

Interesting Hair cut

2010-11-25T22:26:00.002+08:00

another artist is going to rock my ass off. fucking cool her hair. you go cassie. too bad my hair is short now. but i do love your hair because you seems like going to rock this world with this hair. hahaha. salutee!

bang!

2010-11-25T13:43:00.002+08:00

harini macam tak pecaya je. me, rossa and att plan nak klua bersama. they're my schoolmate when i was at school. plan kami memang best, plan awal2 memang takkan menjadi. ini pun last minute punya plan. Dengan demam makin teruk semua, kawan sekolah punya pasal, memang kena pegi la. sakit ke ape ke memang dah lama tak jumpa dorang sume. i miss my schoolmates, for real. so 1.30 i siap. suddenly, dalam otak i, terlintas plak;

Semoga ____ dan_____ berkekalan,

AMIN AMIN AMIN....

Pastu memang tak sentap la en. *crying*

his message

2010-11-25T12:03:00.004+08:00

in his car

we have a conversation. suddenly he said

bee: mengelabah siot pompuan ni. nak kena pijak?

Me: dari semalam cakap nak pijak aku, tak pijak2

Bee: ingat aku sampai hati ke nak pijak kau. agak2 la akak. malas la nak kawan.

Me: oh, i love you too sayang, dont worry.

Bee: =]

forever hugs. the way he whisper. the way he talk. the way he treat me. haha i remember this when he met me yesterday. i told him that he doesnt care about my fever but haha i kena marah balik. when he said, " oh aku tukar plan aku sebab aku dengar kau sakit. sbb tu aku culik kau. jgn nak macam2." HAHAHA. and and this.

*whisper*

bee: Baby, okay? dada sakit?

Me: sikit. nafas sangkut.

bee: dah makan ubat kan, try to sleep k?

Me: dah. alright.

Bee: Goodnight baby.

Me: Goodnight b

Bee: Love you.

Me: Love you too

Bee: *Kiss forehead.

another conversation

2010-11-24T20:12:00.004+08:00

heyya peeps. another post comes. oh anyways i demam sangat la teruk. so, for this demam i dont have any medicine because im outta cash, plus im in my rent house. my breath like super duper unstable, my cough pretty bad and my flu is bad as well. MTHFCKR. suddenly..

*phone rang, Its baby bee*

Bee: Sayang,

Me: yes.

Bee: kenapa cam penat ni?

Me: baby demam. breathing ni cam pendek.

Bee: abis tu dah pegi clinic?

Me: no. ala, tayah. today maybe balik kl. mama amek

Bee: ish sayang teruk dah ni. jom la pegi clinic. b dtg skang.

Me: tayah la b. b kerja kan. settle down dulu ur works.

Bee: make sure pegi clinic please. teruk sangat.

Me: ye baik laaa *cough*

Bee: eh kau ni nak mampos dah ke?

Me: Kimakkkkkkkkkk!

Bee: tuuuuuuuuut. tuuuuuuut. talian putus. baby letak laa.

Me: babi kau cari pasal. b, baby nak cakap skit.

Bee: ape dia ckp la.

Me: few days back, baby cam tak pecaya kat b sangat tau. not even get ur text ur calls, tup tup dah sampai rumah, tup tup dah kat kedai makan, tup tup b accident after u sent me to shah alam. b tak bitau baby ape jadi kat b smp baby naik risau dengan b sampai pikir lain sume.

Bee: hekhekhek. baby risau eh?

Me: you tell me which gf doesnt care of her boyfriend.

Bee: okay first thing b nak cakap b nak stop jap enjoy. you know the club things, b nak stop jap. tak kira la apepun b nak hold off dulu because things messed up after the accident. im sorry because of that, tapi b serabut sayang. b nak cocentrate on works. nak kasi stable balik

Me: yeah, i feel the same thing. after kenal suma baby tgk b cam dah tak stable sume. baby risau je. tapi japgi after letak call ni kau hilang la balik. kau tau kau cam biskut. hahaha

Bee: HAHA. mesti la hilang. b balik umah tido terus. esok kerja kan syg. u can go to the club as long as jgn menggatal dah la. jangan dance dengan laki lain. kau tu pantang orang ajak dance.

Me: kepala otak kau! aku dah ada kau la setan. if that case, im not going either. okay?

Bee: u can go sayang. but promise me u can take care of yourself. b pecaya baby. okay?

Me: hm. tak best la sayang. tgk la cmne k? tak selamat la b tade

Bee: im not that type of guy yang nak tahan gf b pegi mana2. ask eka, elfy suma. but for now, b mmg taleh pegi club okay. if u nak pegi club, pls do tell me. and start from now, u can call me after office hour

Me: i dont even know what time your office hour is over.

Bee: pukul 6 dah abis dah, after that u can call me.

Me: okay. b please dont do this again. im so worried about you. please. sorry sebab tak pecaya kat b

Bee: hehehehe, takut la tu aku buat benda lain

Me: babi la kau

Bee: dah la baby. b nak sambung buat kerja ni. after kerja ni, b text baby okay.

Me: yela. baik. sayang jangan buat perangai

Bee: i wont. dah jgn lupa makan ubat nnt k. takecare baby, love you =]

that's why i love him so much. he never give up eventho kena tengking ke apa. dia boleh lagi gelak and whatsoever. seriously he turn me off kot. it just like, sometimes marah jugak dekat dia. but dia punya sorry still bole pakai and he admit his mistakes. oh, i dont care what people gonna say about me. im just happy and if tak suka, blaaahh!

another new punk cut

2010-11-23T23:13:00.006+08:00

hello guys. it's me again! haha. anyways today im gonna talk about my new new new punk hair cut. i did cut yesterday. but baru upload today. so sorry! this is my new hair cut. selup lagi pendek. hehe, enjoy =]

okay hodoh time ni. after jogging

see see

back to front

side to side. hahaha. this is my new hair :)

stalker

2010-11-23T15:58:00.003+08:00

Cakap tanak amik tau pasal life aku. kata nak benci aku. kata nak ludah bila jumpa aku. kata aku ni perempuan murah. kata aku ni sial. kata lagi macam2. tapi kenapa eh aku nampak kau add orang boyfriend aku? kenapa eh nak kena add? kenal ke kau dengan dia? suka ke kau dengan dia? gay ke kau? aku tak mintak pun dia delete kau. tidak sama skali. guna la account sesapa pun kau nak add. he will say;

"baby biarkan dia add or cari b, because once he found me, i will teach him how to treat nicely to the the person i love. he been stalking us, doesnt he? let it be. Yes im a sweet talker, but im being sweet for you, not for others. *sep sep*"

So my decision is, biarkan jela. no matter what happens, its fate. im just not revenge. that's all.

YOU ROCK MY WORLD, BOYFRIEND.

piece of heart saying

2010-11-23T15:36:00.002+08:00

I talk to other guys but i don't talk to them like the way i talk to you. Sure, those guys can make me smile, but not make me smile like the way you do. Sure, they can make me laugh but not make me laugh the way you do. Yeah, there's a lot of guys out there, but listen, none of them can compare to you. My eyes and heart are set you and only you. Thank you for your trust towards me. thank you for understand me the way i am, me love you so much.

xx, fiqa

second heartbeat

2010-11-18T03:34:00.002+08:00

This is why im still standing right here right now. i owned him. im happy and have a great time with this particular person. thanks for makes me happy again after all my past kills me. here im back with your strength.

Oh boyfriend

2010-11-18T02:48:00.008+08:00

actually plan untuk raya haji ni ingatkan nak spend time half day untuk family and half day untuk sayang, but he breaks his promise! *fuck you sayang* HAHA. bayangkan eh people im waiting for his calls and messages from 3pm till 1am!! then, on my way to Jalan Alor with kakak and kamal my phone rang.

Boyfriend: Hello baby, where are you?

Me: on my way to jalan alor.

Boyfriend: with who? kakak and kamal?

Me: yes.

Boyfriend: tak inform pun kenapa?

Me: i thought you been busy with your raya. lagipun baru klua je ni

Boyfriend: Sorry eh b baru sampai ni. and sorry for tak jumpa baby arini. too busy laa. mak tanak balik tadi.

Me: its okay. i told you, dont rush things. lain kali kan ada?

Boyfriend: tape, sayang pegi makan dulu. after makan you call me. b tunggu ni.

Me: kalau tak angkat?

Boyfriend: kalau tak angkat means b tido. but makesure ade misscalls. get it?

Me: okay i call u later.

Boyfriend: baby....

Me: yes

Boyfriend: I love you, remember that.

Me: i love you too b. :')

1 HOUR LATER

Me: b! tido ke?

Boyfriend: huh!?.. a'ah.

Me: padan muka kau nak aku call sangat en? hahaha

Boyfriend: Haha. tetiba dah segar. Baby..B nak Baby..

Me: mengigau ke sayang? haha. btw lupa nak cakap dengan b, esok pagi baby pegi dentist okay xtray my teeth.

Boyfriend: haaaa? pakai braces?

Me: yupp! b jugak yang suruh en!?

Boyfriend: yeayy!

Me: so i call you tomorrow morning okay sayang. pegi tido la esok nak bangun pagi.

Boyfriend: okay. baby takecare yeah. be safe, I love you.

Me: love you too.

actually masa ni memang tengah marah dengan dia sangat-sangat. but dia sebenarnya sangat menjaga hati i. its like he wanted me to be safe always. oh oh oh, anyways people, he's the person that im looking for. i remember what he told me before. " terus terang eh, b tak suka perempuan pakai heels, b tak suka pompuan rambut panjang, b tak suka nak hypocrite but the most important is, b memang suka perempuan kulit gelap. that's what im looking for and finally i found you". HAHA. he doesnt even care about how bad im look like, but still, he makes me happy all the way. and people! lupa plak, im gonna have a brace face very sooooooooooon. im goona brace my teeth this december, insyallah. itu pun mamat ni yang suruh! Haha. he's my inspiration for this kot padahal aku la paling takut nak cabut gigi. i miss him so much and i miss the way he talked so active, party together, dance together, his hugs and everything. all about him, i miss. i love you b, hope you notice that every single day. *hugs.

he rock my world

2010-11-15T04:02:00.006+08:00

Someone has stole my heart. he actually make me smile all this while.

We dance together, he teach me how to dance, he's my inspiration.

He put myself first on his side. he treat me well like i am his princess, he give me confident, his funny random noises he make, he's totally rock my world.

presenting

So there's is the boy. and i gotta admit he's got my attention.

The bottom line is, im all his, and he's mine.

xx, fiqa

pointer 6th sem

2010-11-12T16:50:00.000+08:00

3.2

whatthefuck?

Routine

2010-11-11T22:44:00.001+08:00

2010-11-10T18:42:00.003+08:00

Hehehe, New life comes. hehehehehe. smile alottt. i found my happiness, i found what i deserves all this while, i found the light, Here comes, im really in good condition and im happy now. i really build my strength back and thanks alot for make me smile. tehee. im not gonna tell detail people, but soooooooooon, i will tell. HEHE. *hugs

H *I

2010-11-10T18:34:00.001+08:00

Seorang perempuan yang desperado and Bajet kau nak bergaduh, Takat message, alahai buang masa. meh sini jumpa aku. aku ada kat sekitar desa pandan or Shah alam, seksyen 7. meh cari aku and kau nak tau who really am i. i'll show you.

*Happy

2010-11-10T16:07:00.000+08:00

Aww, I got My Superman

*Loveyou

xx, fiqa

Goodbye

2010-11-08T17:10:00.002+08:00

It hurts to say goodbye to the person you almost gave your life. Knowing that life wont be the same. But its better to give up the feeling rather than to know your the only one fighting.

Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, and you meant nothing to him. You hurt me more than i deserves, how can you be so cruel, I love you more than you deserve, why am i such a fool.

xx, fiqa.

sentap

2010-11-06T19:58:00.000+08:00

He left me now.

Happy, Fiqa?

letting go

2010-11-06T02:50:00.000+08:00

How do you walk away from someone you love
And take the road of friend;
Can you reroute the course you have taken
And start over once again?

I don't really want to let you go
But inside me I know I must;
The times we've loved . . . the times you've left
My heart says stay . . . but it's my mind I must trust.

We have shared so much together
Laughter . . . fun times . . . tears;
Yet sometimes we can't turn back time
We must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal.

I know one day you will be happy
And your soulmate you will find;
I know we each have one out there
Even if for now . . . only in our minds.

May life be gentle with you
May God's best come your way;
And on some quiet tomorrow
You will realize things were better this way.

Suck

2010-11-06T00:33:00.001+08:00

AKU RASA MACAM NAK PENUMBUK MUKA ORANG KEJAP.

PASAL KAU HIDUP AKU HURU-HARA.

Good condition

2010-11-05T16:37:00.006+08:00

we looking good arent we? hahaha of course we are babes! we are good, we still friends, we still hangover, we still HA HA like shits, we still like before, we still apa2 jela. We are good la senang cerita. haha, i miss this, but we go with the flow. WE STILL FRIENDS. i am good person kan? haha. Enjoy =]

I love my hair, alahai.

Kawan katanyaaa. hahaha

His belonging. OBEY

This is why im start to call him, OBEY.

tgk tu tgk tu.

xx, Fiqa

message

2010-11-05T16:04:00.003+08:00

I know you will read my blog and keep stalking my blog, i know who you really are. now let me tell u what im gonna say about us, sorry i cant be able talk through the handphone because i know, things will be mess. so read carefully and understand the messages.

after things are happened like so fucked up, this is the main point why we are not meant to be together. after 10 months we have been through, i think we need seperate for our own good. i just need space for myself. and i think i wanna give you space as well. bukan salah kau je aku nak kaitkan, aku pikir kesalahan aku jugak. tapi aku rasa banyak sangat kau dah buat kat aku sampai aku dah tabole tahan dengan ape yang kau bagi kat aku. kau anggap bagi harapan dekat pompuan lain tu satu gurauan, aku tabole terima. kau maki aku, kau hina aku, aku tabole terima. kau kata aku tak bole banggakan, ex kau yang lain kau memang bangga, aku memang tabole terima, kau sering puji gf kawan-kawan kau, sedangkan kau tau orang yang hidup dengan kau sekarang ni tak seberapa, sekurang-kurangnya jangan membanggaka gf orang lain, sebab ketara sangat taste kau camne sebenarnya. berapa kali kau flirt dengan pompuan lain, tapi nape aku bole terima kau balik? kenapa aku jugak yang kau cari? itu yang buat aku tak faham dengan perangai kau. ape kata kau cari pompuan yang bole buat kawan2 kau bangga dengan ape yang kau ada. kau jugak dapat market tinggi nanti.

Aku nak space dalam life aku bukan sebab aku teringin nak cuba lelaki lain. ini apa yang aku rasa, so terpulang pada kau untuk terima or tidak. nak terima, bukak la hati kau, tanak terima, kau ignore je. lebih 2 minggu aku break dengan kau, aku rasa nak mencuba laki lain tu memang satu benda paling fobia untuk aku. aku ingat pesan kau selalu, jangan mudah percaya pada lelaki yang nak dekat aku, mungkin dorang ade niat buruk. aku tau suma tu, aku bole nampak lelaki zaman sekarang ape yang dorang nak. aku sendiri nak move on pun aku takut, sebab aku rasa belum sampai masa orang bole gantikan tempat kau, jaga aku, tolong aku, hidup aku sekarang aku nak cari angin baru. bukan menggantikan tempat kau, aku pun penah cakap dengan kau nak kenal orang baru memang menyusahkan. nak exchange number hp, nak kenal hati dia lagi, nak percaya dekat dia you know all the bullshits, aku malas gila. hidup aku sekarang, aku nak betulkan balik apa yang dah jatuh, aku nak bangun balik, aku nak hidup sorang, aku nak buat keputusan untuk diri sendiri tanpa pikir orang lain, untuk menjaga hati orang lain, tu suma aku tanak. sebab pengorbanan aku yang tak seberapa selama ni dah aku tunjukkan, tapi kenapa ada lagi kecurangan. tak guna kalau sorang je setia en, kalau setia pun teman main kayu tiga, baik kita pun curang jugak

Curang la yang buat aku gerun nak buat masa aku couple dengan someone yang aku serious. aku nak buat pun, aku tak sampai hati, sebab aku tak dapat bayangkan apa yang teman aku sendiri rasa bila dapat tau aku curang dengan orang lain. tapi kalau kau dah sebati dengan perangai kau camtuh, kite memang tak sekapal la. kau campak la mana2 pompuan yang bole terima kau curang dengan orang lain or senang cita kecurangan kau tu bukan satu hal dalam relationship kau. bak datang aku nak tgk sapa pompuan tu. melainkan kalau dia bole terima, means dia buat benda yang sama ape yang kau buat. kalau camtu baik tayah bercinta kan. aku lagi respect orang yang tak beercinta tapi dia flirt, dorang tu bole dikatakan tak sampai hati lagi la nak mainkan perasaan orang. kalau kau ada sifat kasanova kau, baik kau tayah bercinta kan. simple as that.

aku bukan nak mengajar kau cara nak bercinta, tapi kau dah besar, dah bole pikir, dah masuk alam twenties kot. ada lagi ke zaman2 flirt time umur cam kau? kau bukan lagi kat zaman teens. kalau ye pun tabole lari dari hidup kasanova, kau bole flirt, tapi jangan bercinta. aku lama dengan kau sebab aku pikir kau dah tinggalkan dunia kau semua tu, kau dah bersedia nak buat teman kau happy, tapi aku silap. aku tabole pegi dengan lifetime kau sekarang, even sakit hati aku sebab aku percaya kau, aku sayang kau tapi cukup la kau mengajar aku jadi orang yang tabah. aku mungkin ego macam yang kau cakap, tapi aku ego bertempat, aku memang keras kepala sebab aku dah tak larat nak tengok lelaki pijak kepala aku, pijak kepala pompuan2 lain yang korang anggap lemah. semua manusia ada maruah. seego-ego aku pun, aku pikir cara nak menghargai orang, pikir hati orang, kalau aku cakap benci, aku sayang sebenarnya. aku berlagak tabah bila kena maki dengan kau, tapi dalam hati aku sorang je yang tau. pompuan lain kau bole nak buat nanges, tapi bukan aku, enough with all this bullshits. and last message, jangan ingat kau sorang je yang betul dalam ape pun keadaan. kau human being cam aku, kau sendiri penah buat silap.

Byebye long hair

2010-11-04T18:03:00.003+08:00

salam satu Malaysia. HAHAHA wtf! anyways, sorry youguys for not updating my blog. i've been busy with my finals, sorry. anyways, let me share with youguys about myself. haha, some of the might notice i've been cut my hair, short. REALLY SHORT OKAY PEOPLE. i have no idea why i cut my hair, but i think im cool with it. hehe and i really love my hair, u can see my photo's down here. but you olzz, i miss my long hair, my curly hair, straight hair, color hair, everything about my hair. so my hair is no longer long anymore. hahaha.

motherfuckers! this is me.

selup babe selup!

ni paling jelas.

oh, with my loved ones!

xx ,fiqa.

one word, Enough!

2010-10-22T17:05:00.002+08:00

It just all over again. Padan muka kau fiqa, you're looking for infliction, not for your happiness in your life, HAHA. ada lagi manusia yang boleh tak fikirkan hati dan perasaan bila bercinta. tolong la sedar, kau dalam dunia percintaan. kalau tanak semua tu, then leave, nape mahu lagi kan? Wake up fiqa, this is not the first time he did this. I know people's around said that im stupid, now i realize that was true. and i dont care what will your friends say, i dont care, and i couldnt care less because they evaluate me in bad person eventho is actually your fault. so i dont care now. no offense.

I shouldnt love him. No regrets, but it was my mistakes perhaps. Maybe people's around dont understand what im trying to do with my relationship. im searching for the best, i fix for my own good sake, but it just a mistakes. im not be able to change someone who really stuck with flirting attitude. Im sorry im not the one who can stand with your way.

He doesnt seem like to apprieciate you, fiqa. move on with your way. find your happiness and find someone better and can makes you smile and happy, that's the best. Haha, im trying people, no worries. im gonna give others chance to enter my life. enough with this bullshit. im looking for the right guys, maybe not for this time, but i will wait. time will comes. im just make sure that i wont repeat my mistake again. and hell yeah, moving on is the best way. No offense again, but you dont deserves me. go with your life and this is gonna be the last time you stay in my blog. Im no longer yours and no story about you in my blog. Tutup buku =]

VIOLENCE WONT SETTLE THE PROBLEMS, BASTARD :)

mejiku

2010-10-21T22:26:00.000+08:00

i have your t-shirt here. i smell you and i miss you.

k, bye :(

oh my brother.

2010-10-21T22:10:00.004+08:00

brother: angah.
me: before you speak, do u make any appointment?
brother:what? no.
me: no appointment, no talk.
brother: i wanna ask u la stupid. when u come home.
me: tomorrow never die. haha.
brother: u die tomorrow. i guarantee that. i upah bounty hunter to hunter you.
me: MOTHER FATHER! (motherfu*ker)
brother: u ah. hey you. u know Snoop Dogg ?of course u know right ?

me: yeah the nigga one. like u. why?

brother: chat with u like biskut almond london u know ? kjp online kjp off? he is islam u know ?

me: hey hey. my broadband is fucking lembab one

brother: yeah. just like u -____-

fucking ass my brother. hahaha. but i do love him. he's effin sweet and i know he miss me :)

Lebam(s)

2010-10-21T10:40:00.001+08:00

TERIMA KASIH DUGAAN

ALHAMDULILLAH :)

Biru :(

2010-10-21T01:24:00.002+08:00

this biru is owned by kamal, my brother. this car are meant to me. my brother fetch me using this car and what im feel so sad right now is, my brother gonna sale his car because of his reasonable. but i do feel sad because i love this car so fucking much. maybe this is the best for kamal itself. pls dont be naughty biru, u know im gonna miss you and love you always. much love from me, BIRU.

This car

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS BIRU. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING :(

You deserves this.

2010-10-11T23:21:00.003+08:00

honestly to say that, im crying while i've heard this song. it mean alot to me. shit =[

Credit to: Meea

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream
So I travel back, down that road
Who she come back? No one knows
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement
I swear now I can’t take it
Knowing somebody’s got my baby.
And now you ain’t around, baby I can’t think
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring
Cuz I can still feel it in the air
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair

My lover, my life. my shorty, my wife
She left me, I’m tied
Cuz I knew that it just ain’t right

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn’t give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback
Now I’m in the club thinkin all about my baby
Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait
I guess that love wasn’t enough

I’m goin through it every time that I’m alone
And now i’m missin, wishin she’d pick up the phone
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one
Cuz I was wrong

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream
So I travel back, down that road
Who she come back? No one knows
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
And now they’re gone and you wish
You could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
And now they’re gone and
You wish you could give them everything.

101010

2010-10-10T00:55:00.001+08:00

HAPPY TENTENTWENTYTEN PEOPLE!

NICE NUMBER ISNT IT?

LOVE THAT.

Speedzone huh?

2010-10-10T00:26:00.003+08:00

Another story i have to split up. I went to kak ieka's place at Taman Shamelin. Well, its nearer at my school. Seri Bintang Utara. Im just miss my school time. Nothing much changed with the school. Stay same. Well, back to the story, while im at kak ieka's place Kamal wrote at his BBM(blackberry Messanger) status, Which is "Speedzone cant brings Ciggaretes, Lighter and Inhaler?"

SUMPAHHHH!!?

Okay first i have to say that luckily im not going there because like hello people, KL Live event such a superduper bored okay. I've been there before. OMG, what can i say is the speaker is sucks, the crowd, Full of Jack-ass! and heck!! i've heard the ciggaretes thingy. what a shame.

second thing is, i know KL Live cant smoke, but this speedzone cant even brings cigga inside the Event? Bukan ke KL Live ade smoking area!!? Then how like the smokers wants to smoke? they cant do that, for real.If inhaler cant brings in, then its okay with that. I know the organizer wants to make sure that event is under control and full of secure. But perlu ke sampai rokok and lighter tabole bawak? WTF! thats all i can mencarut.

Come on people, bukan nak cakap apa or nak judge this event, but for sure those audience wants the best and feel worth for buying the tickets. the event are getting bored day by day. dont you realize, peoples around are criticize the event. you can see the percentage of the crowd. Last 2 years or make it simple, Last year jela. there was almost 90%. as we can see before, they came from Johor, Malacca and some other place i might dont know, but still they are raver-ing themselves. they just wanna have fun. but now the percentage is decrease. Ican see that.

Okay moving on, the ticket. have you noticed that the cost ticket is fucking expensive? Yes it is. and if the event is fucking amazing, you know it worth for it, seriously. No offense but youguys remember Last Speedzone at genting? i can say that i've enjoy with last event. the event, the venue, the crowd, the sound and everything. Way better than KL Live.

THANK GOD, FIQA YOU NOT GOING THERE

Okay here goes, i dont feel like im adverse if not heading there. Fuck no people. unfortunetely, it save my 40 bucks for ticket, 30 for other, 10 for cigga. Almost 100 bucks okay i can save. i even can save for paramore or zoukout perhaps. LOL! if you dont like m y opinion, im motherfucking dont give a damn. Chow, xx.

need honest?

2010-10-09T19:17:00.002+08:00

Honestly, are you in love right now?
- fuck no. im not into that. sorry =]

Honestly, what's going on in your mind right now?
-how im gonna have 500 bucks before 11.12.10.

Honestly, what are you doing right now?
-answer this shits? -__-

Honestly, what you did today?
-watching television

Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
-Sometimes i can be. *wooooooahh.

Honestly, have you done something bad today?
-God knows.

Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
-Nope.

Honestly, are you jealous on someone now?
-not for now. its wortless with the motherfuckers.

Honestly, what makes you happy all the time?
- party!

Honestly, what do you want to see at this very moment?
-zoukout babyy!

Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
-I do! everyone do.

Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
-I hate someone that i loved! period.

Honestly, what do you wanna hug right now?
-My pillows (sleepy though)

Honestly, do your wrist hurt?
-My heart bleeds.

Honestly, are you in denial?
-Yes I am.

Honestly, does anyone like you?
-Oh no.

Honestly, do you answer this question correctly?
-fuck yes.

oh weekend!

2010-10-09T18:30:00.005+08:00

I was supposed to do my Creative Strategy ASSingment by now but I am Facebook -ing instead. Afan did told me about the commercial that need to be done, but like what afan said, Oh, kalau nak buat, buat la. afan dah malas. Ala tape, next sem kite bole mencuba lagi subject creative ni. haha okay afan Thanks alot. now i have to think where i should get for RM1500 for next sem. gotta extend another sem for repeated and several subject that i have to take.ptptn will not cover all this. and i HAVE to repeated the subject? Sigh, seriously though I could have gone sleep by now if I keep think this. What to do, this is fact, fiqa! deal with it.

change the topic puhleaseee!

haha people this is not my point actually. this boring weekend i do some of analysis, *(ceit poyo je). its actually about me. so here goes and enjoy. oh by the way, before i start this is the real me. this is what i do and i did. this is what i wants and what i need. if you dont like it, just move your ass off before i hate you more and more, thank you. =]

10 things about myself

-im superduper coward at certain things.

-Handphone is absolutely fucking important. *way important than FB. duh!

-I love party. *so what? im just being me.

-cant love someone easily, yet i can hate someone easily.

-My face is not clean much. pimples are around.

-I've got dark skin

-Im not revenge

-I can make people's around happy with me.

-I talk and laugh alot

-I dont compete

-Hey, im Syafiqah Razip

Eight ways to win my heart

-Treat me like how you want to be treated

-Make me feel happy and laugh alot. I will absolutely love you

-Of course, he doesnt lie, hurt, cheat or hit me, thats real boyfriend.

-get to know me better than myself.

-I love jokes

-I dont like hot temper guy. If you are, please go.

-I love when he do in whatever i do in my routine

-I dont love drama king. so please, dont drama with me.

Six things i do before i fall asleep.

-Wash up

-Brush teeth

-Texting/onthephone

-Music-ing

-Think about tomorrow

-Peluk Bantal busuk

3 places that you would like to go

-Italy for sure

-Las Vegas

-New York

About myself, maybe you dont know about me because hell yeah, Facebook or Blog nor whatsoever in this cyberworld can defines me for who really am i. Im not hypocrite. I hate that. From the above, i can say that i love party. YES IM REALLY AM. Do you have any problem with that? who say that all party people are bad? i bet you are totally wrong. They just wanna have fun in whatever they do. remember that in this world, aint nobody as good as angel. you're wrong again, im sorry.

second thing is, im not saying that im choosy in type of boyfriend or anything, Im just need someone can make my life become happy like others. I need happiness, I need the best of myself. AGAIN I REPEAT, I NEED THE BEST OF MY LIFE.

About the place i would like to go, First and foremost ITALY BABYY. I dont know why i would like to go there. im just love the type of food in Italy. You know the pizza, spaggeti, bolognese, all italianese food are my favourite.no more explaination. blank with that. so fuck yeah, lets bitch around. im bored. toodles. =]

October?

2010-10-09T17:33:00.001+08:00

Hey, Im fooling myself right now.

am i? am i? am i?

this will sabotage my study.

My God, please dont.

Haha, go find ass-kicker and ask them to kick your ass fiqa!

im done, k thx bye.

kipas oh kipas

2010-10-09T14:46:00.002+08:00

It's been weeks huh? don't know I just didn't feel like blogging. and by the way, semester break is coming. hellaluyahhhh. Okay what actually brought me here is to show you guys how retarded people nowadays are. have you ever experienced where you completely been stuck with whoever's problem? they do have problems, but you're stuck with them.

Let me ask you something about this, can you like please dont drag me in your fucking problems. i dont know what the kind of human being you are. okay whatever, im judging too much. but puhlease! Grow up. its time to think about others feeling. hey, im syafiqah razip, 20 years old still young but i couldnt be so like fucking strong to face all this shits. yeah whatever. you can say whatever you want to say, im just fucking dont care. period.

Before i start the interested part of the next story, would like to say thanks for all the kipas, and the sekutunya because youguys fucking annoyed me. hehe, no offense, but youguys are growth up right now, please dont act like school kids because being a kipas is fucking pathetic much. and yang sekutunya, please you're choosing people okay. like hello its unfair, and "they" are just like other, like me as well. but why dont you treat us like the way you treat them. its unfair okay, and again, it brings me to hell.oh please stop shows me those losers. terjerit2, duduk keliling, ayat2 manis, like motherfckers, you're loser okay.

I clearly have no idea who the hell those people are, where the hell do they come from I clearly didn't give a shit whatever they're doing. to motherfucker who try to ruined my life, try to stalk syafiqah razip or what so ever you did to me, COME ON, ITS JUST SYAFIQAH RAZIP! im just person who accomplish her mission, try to build her happy life with others, im just wants happiness of my life. im looking for that. im done typing here, XOXO.

smile

2010-09-28T22:13:00.003+08:00

His smile.

Cry again, and again. all over again.

when im gonna stop this tears?

tell me, pls.

gimme some strength to start my life again.

why 28th?

2010-09-28T15:23:00.001+08:00

I WANNA CRY.

ANNIVERSARRY? NO MORE =[

KEEP IT AS MEMORY, FOREVER.

bored to death

2010-09-28T15:10:00.003+08:00

Hello world, im fiqa. the best name of nurul ain syafiqah bt mohd razip. twenty this twenty ten. fifth sem in unisel, shah alam. easy to get along with anyone. im pretty much of open minded person, i can make u feel that. my pics tell youguys about what im feel right now. only get to know me well, u can defines me for who really i am. i dont really like to enter other people's life. im just being me. some of them can accept, some of them are not. i know some of them can love me for the way i am. im so thankful. lalalala.

im not pretty as miss world, im not as good as angel, im just a ordinary person that u can find some place. i can tell that im not 100% being pathetic person or annoying as you think, im half good and half bad. people can treat me well, but some of them just playing around my feelings. but i can accept my fact because this is life. going up and down. im not telling u guys that i'll forever going up. this is life. i can accept. thank you for those who being friends with me or being my other half. xx.

little girl speak

2010-09-28T12:58:00.003+08:00

Eversince i was a little girl, i always dreamed of having my own wonderland to such an extreme i'd searching for it. I was brought up watching fantasy movies. I didnt want to be Cinderella, sleeping beauty, snow white or whatsoever, i wanted to be me and my dream was to find my own wonderland. I often wondered how i'd spend day thinking about a world far from this and reality we called earth.

I wondered if there was escape, a void, a secret door, a hole in this world i could escape into. I didnt care what was behind it, that was the fun part. hehe. i wanted it so much, i actually crawl underneath the small gap, underneath my bunk bed to see if there was a secret world. i'd make different worlds in different scenarios.

I am still that little girl, Dreaming. i've come to realize what i was searching for was right in front of me, i can make my world, my Vision. I really can create my own vision to the exact momment.

if u could

2010-09-27T17:51:00.003+08:00

joe brooks if fucking cute and handsome. Omaigoooooddd! credit to rossa. if i could have a boyfriend like joe brooks. haha. this song makes me feel better and i can move on slowly eventhough i had so much pain aite now. just stay strong, and its worth for ourselves.

There are no words, to paint a picture of you girl

Your eyes, those curves, it's like you're from some other world

You walk my way, oh God is so frustrating.

So why do I disappear when you come near,

It makes me feel so small,

Why do I blow my lines, most every time,

Like I got no chance at all,

If I could be your superman,

I'd fly you to the stars and back again.

'cause everytime you touched my hand,

You feel my powers running through your veins.

But I can only write this song,

And tell you that I'm not that strong.

'Cause I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am, oh yeah, aladadadadi

It aint no lie, I have to tell you how I feel,

Each time, I try it gets a little more unreal,

You walk my way,oh God is so frustrating.

So why do I disappear when you come near,

It makes me feel so small,

If I could read your mind,

Girl would I find, any trace of me at all.

If I could be your superman,

Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com

I'd fly you to the stars and back again.

'cause everytime you touched my hand,

You feel my powers running through your veins.

But I can only write this song,

And tell you that I'm not that strong.

Cause I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am - ladadadi, woahhhh, woahhh, yeah, babadadadiii- ,woahhh, yeah

If I could be your superman,

I'd fly you to the stars and back again.

'Cause everytime you touched my hand,

You feel my powers running through your veins.

But I can only write this song,

And tell you that I'm not that strong.

'cause I'm no supermaaaan,

I hope you like me as I am.

alallladali.

motif?

2010-09-27T13:24:00.002+08:00

asal gaduh je, add la scandal kau? nak buat ape? sakitkan hati. itu cara kau tunjuk sayang kau kat aku? wopppsy, lupa plak kau suruh aku ingat asal usul aku. rupanya hidup 9 bulan kau kau menanggung malu. i already know that long time ago. well, takesah la kalau nak hidup dengan perempuan lain. just be happy with your life, and thanks for everything. i really hate you know.

make me strong, Christina Aguilera.

2010-09-14T18:36:00.002+08:00

for us, i guess.

oh, Madd Chadd im in love

2010-09-14T18:29:00.004+08:00

Madd Chadd, you know how stunning you are when you did the robot dance. fuck im in love. Period.

kuat fiqa.. kuat..

2010-09-14T16:29:00.002+08:00

yeah, bila2 masa orang bole jatuhkan kita sesama manusia. mulut orang kita memang tabole tutup. tambah2 lagi orang yang ada hasrat dengki yang memang mahu jatuhkan kita. aku yang hadapi sume ni sudah lali dengan orang begitu disekeliling. pada raut wajah je nampak baik dan hati mulia, tapi hati masing2? mungkin mereka berjaya jatuhkan aku sekarang. haha, aku bukan la sekolot mungkin utk membalas dendan, that is not my life style. Tuhan je yang boleh membalas. bukan kita akan sentiasa berada diatas. bila2 masa akan jatuh jugak. awal2 lagi aku dah maafkan pada yang berkenaan. hope korang happy pasni k?

Lesson for today

2010-09-14T03:32:00.001+08:00

Dont trust people easily.

Fuck You Boyfriend, Dah Blah!

strong

2010-09-12T06:43:00.002+08:00

I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more

Selesai tugas

2010-09-12T05:23:00.004+08:00

you're done with your girlfriend part.

now you're nobody's girlfriend.

you're done with your part.

thank you.

Penghinaan

2010-09-12T04:57:00.003+08:00

Dia tinggalkan aku sebab dia jumpa perempuan lagi cantik.

Dia tinggalkan aku sebab aku terlalu buruk untuk dianggap girlfriend.

Dia tinggalkan aku sebab aku dituduh punca dia flirting dengan perempuan cantik

Dia tinggalkan aku sebab dia confess dia la laki paling malang dapat perempuan cam aku

Dia tinggalkan aku sebab dia bosan and penat dengan pergaduhan.

tapi hakikatnya, kerana aku buruk aku ditinggalkan. Nasib.

aku yang buruk hanya mahukan kebahagiaan, nak merasa gak camne perasaan wanita2 cantik sume dapat kebahagiaan. tapi haha aku yang buruk ni sering dijadikan seperti sampah buangan. mungkin jijik, mungkin malu, mungkin tidak mengaku. Itu suma barangkali.

Cerita Trouble Maker

2010-09-12T03:52:00.002+08:00

Hidup seorang trouble maker ni bukan sekadar negatif saje. seorang budak perempuan yang bukan saje trouble maker malah dia ada sifat bertimbang rasa, manja, bole sekepala and macam2 lagi. Dia seorang yang bole dikatakan sangat menghargai orang disekililing jika mereka suma sayang kepadanya. dia ada family, kawan, kawan baik, kawan kelas, kawan skola, macam2 la yang segelintir dorang sayang, dan yang segelintir tidak, mana tau la en :)

Dia hidup dengan teman paling dia sayang selama 9 bulan. macam2 yang berubah. sayang lagi bertambah sayang. cabaran dan dugaan mereka harungi sama. kadang2 bole dikatakan tiap2 hari nak bergado sampaikan orang sekililing naik menyirap dengan mereka berdua. si trouble maker ni sering diperhatikan oleh teman dia sampai kan salah sikit pun dia perasan. sampaikan si trouble maker ni tak buat pun dituduh buat. si trouble maker ni tidak la trouble sangat, tapi disering anggap cmtu oleh temannya. jadi, ape yang trouble maker ni bole buat adalah, bersabar. si trouble maker ni jgk seorang yang ego, keras kepala, bongkak sume ah. tapi sejak hari demi hari dia meyayangi temannya, dia berniat untuk berubah demi utk membetulkan hubungan mereka bertambah baik.

tapi masuk ke bulan ke sembilan, perkara kecil pun bole bawa ke besar. bole bergaduh sampai dilayan macam sampah. tiba-tiba, dapat pula sebuah dugaan yang temannya sudah menganggap dirinya malang kerana dapat trouble maker ni, dirinya jgk menyesal kerana dpt kenal dengan trouble maker ni. trouble maker ni tidak mengalah, tanya ape salah dia, dia masih pujuk temannya, dia masih mendengar ape luahan atau maki temannya. dia tak mengalah. sampaikan si trouble maker ni tau kebenaran. kebenaran yang temannya sedang mengayat seorang wanita cantik. trouble maker cuba utk bertanya, sedihnya teman dia berkata dia tiada hak utk tahu semua ni atau halang dia. dia cume settingkan perempuan cantik itu.

kini trouble maker sudah tau kenapa dia sering dimaki, di panggil pompuan malang, dan dipersalahkan atas ape yang berlaku. temannya berkata ini semua berpunca dari trouble maker sendiri. trouble maker menangis seesak esaknya tetapi tiada siapa tau. trouble maker kini terasa hidupnya sudah jatuh terduduk. dia yang mati2 percaya bahawa temannya setia padanya, tapi dia silap. terima kasih teman.

assumption

2010-09-01T17:31:00.005+08:00

kalau hidup aku selama 20 tahun ni penuh dengan dugaan, aku terima dengan rela hati. tapi tamparan hebat kali ni buatkan aku jatuh mendadak. aku hilang arah, aku tade hala tuju, aku perlukan seseorang untuk bicara. tapi kemana mereka pergi di saat aku perlukn dorang? adakah ini sume silap aku? adakah aku sendiri silap langkah. mungkin iye, tapi aku sendiri yang tak perasan.

kawan baik atau pun rakan karib pergi meninggalkan aku. mungkin tade lagi label bestfriend pada hidupnya buat aku. aku tatau mana silapnya aku, mana salahkah aku. mungkin aku bole perbetulkan kalau ade yang silap, tapi tiap kali aku cuba utk mendapatkan reaksi dari kau, aku seperti cakap dengan spender basah. seperti tiada respon. tertanya-tanya camne lagi cara utk mendapatkan penjelasan. kalau rasa tidak lagi perlukan aku sebagai teman karib atau pun kawan baik utk kau, aku terima. aku redha. pergi la ke jalan yang mengembirakan kau. mungkin aku tidak layak untuk dibuat teman. mungkin kau akan mengubah fikiran, siap yang tau, aku sentiasa ada untuk kau. maafkan aku kalau2 tersilap langkah

mungkin jugak dalam diam, seorang insan yang aku labelkan hanya kawan saje yang berniat untuk menjatuhkan aku. kini aku jatuh terduduk sekarang. aku tatau ape salah aku pada kau, ape dosa aku pada kau, tapi kau berjaya buat aku terduduk skang. haih, aku la insan paling takut hilang kawan. jujur aku cakap aku menghargai setiap kawan2 yang aku ade. takesah la aku ade kawan yang suka cakap besar, suka menunjuk2 harta dan kekayaan, show off kebolehan yang ada, kawan yang kau la paling eduacated, kau la paling pandai, aku tetap menghargai. tapi kenapa ade je orang yg mau tgk aku terduduk lagi?

sebagai teman hidup atau sebahagian dari hidup aku, kau kena susah senang dengan aku. ape pula cita kali ni? aku perlukan kau di saat aku susah di saat aku senang. aku jenis mau dimanja. aku perlukan bimbingan dan sokongan. bila bila masa aku perlukan sume tu. tapi mana kau? kalau dunia kau kelilingi dengan gurauan yang bole menyakitkan hati aku, mungkin aku bukanlah orangnya. aku tidak bole menerima semua perbuatan kau yang kau menganggap tu sume gurauan. aku bukan gila gila, aku bukan rock sangat nak terima dengan fikiran terbuka. ada mase aku bole terima, tapi sampai bila aku nak menipu diri utk melihat semua perbuatan kau yang kau mengganggap tu sume gurau? rakan2 kau menyokong dan gelak atas perbuatan kau. tapi aku yg duduk cam orang bodo di sebelah terpaksa menebal muka. mungkin kau tak faham ape yang aku rasa. sebab aku sehabis respect kau. nak sakitkan hati kau dpn mata aku pun aku tak sanggup. kau belum rasa ape yang aku rasa. mungkin kau tak rasa ape yang aku rasa. dan kau tak rasa itu sume salah bagi kau, tape aku terima. and now, kau fed up dengan perangai aku. mungkin ni sume salah aku jugak.

aku hilang kesemuanya mungkin salah diri aku jugak. aku terima. aku redha =]

Fat vs skinny

2010-08-31T13:54:00.008+08:00

Maybe most of youguys didnt know how fat i am before. oh i really fat like hell okay. maybe some of my old friends knew about my weight. and this fucking 09 and 10 im getting bored about people keep asking me. why im getting skinny, u lose your weight. Mother F, hahaha. some of them know some of them not. hehe so atas permintaan usop, this is my pictures when i was eighteen. usop, ni je yang fiqa jumpa okay. yang lain akan dicari later. hehe.

when i was eighteen. summer splash event.

lapan belas jugak =] yang ni paling gemuk cam gajah. HAHAHA.

so sayang said, no wonder he didnt see me when i was in semester 1 and 2. just because im too fat. haha. and he said if im still be like this till now, he will run away from my life, that's for sure. haha. fuck you babyy. so this is me sayang

so this is it sayang. new me. super skinny with no isi and again, perubahan ketara is it? hehehe. deal with it. im super skinny.

Happy 53th Merdeka

2010-08-31T13:40:00.002+08:00

Happy Merdeka Day Malaysian. May God Bless us and our contry and Have A blast one!

proud to be malaysian babyyy :)

after holiday

2010-08-25T01:08:00.005+08:00

im done with mid term break. a week je kot. but i had lot of fun while holiday. now im busy with classes, assignments, test here and there, new chapter, updating the project group. all about study. let me tell you something, while im in holiday, my parents got a letter from unisel. you know what, 'love letter' from subject creative strategy and implementation. its not actually a love letter. here goes;

Dengan segala hormatnya, adalah dimaklumkan bahawa anda telah didapati tidak menghadiri kuliah bagi matapelajaran di atas tanpa sebarang alasan yang kukuh. Pihak fakulti juga tidak menerima sebarang dokumen menyatakan bahawa anda tidak berkeupayaan untuk hadir kuliah.

hahaha. funny is it. after that, my mum memang temper like hell la. bukan sengaja ma, tapi sakit kan time tu. mana la nak pegi clinic and all that. so memang tade surat mc la. kang kalau beli mc kang tau plak marah, cakap orang menipu sume. so after i've got the letter, i been so hard to study as much as i can. wish me luck okay :D

Laptop tak tinggal

sugar pie

2010-08-25T00:57:00.003+08:00

Hello Boyfriend,

8 months and still counting

i be able to smile because of you.

i love you bodo, get note

you're the complete way of my life.

letter

2010-08-19T16:57:00.002+08:00

THANK YOU =]

I just love my boyfriend

2010-08-19T16:29:00.002+08:00

say who im not gonna happy with my boyfriend? Now i'll proof you wrong. 8 months im with him, now i dont feel to lose him, not at all. Before this, yes i put you as my first love, remember that. well im take it back because you dont deserves to. you talked shits about me, you tell others that im not suitable to be anyone's girlfriend. AGAIN I REPEAT, i'll proof you wrong.

Yes im ugly, got bad look, i am not good enough. but i can treat my boyfriend very well. Idont care if your girlfriend doesnt like me at all, or your girlfriend is way pretty than me, well i dont give a fuck for any dick, BE ALERT. Obviously i dont even know you girlfriend, who is your girlfriend's name or what so ever, BUT I DONT CARE AND I DONT WANT TO KNOW. And to the "man", your life is not perfect enough, you aint good indeed. dont ask me to repent or list down my mistakes. Its my life, not yours. just take care yours and please get your life. I love my boyfriend now. fyi, he already replace you in mylife. so getthahellout of my world. I'll never forgive you.

special for you =]

Thank You

2010-08-14T05:30:00.002+08:00

i have face to that we already split up. maybe i did some mistake, maybe u did as well. this thing make me feel so down to death. honestly to say that im feel so upset and so sad after you're not with me. my tears fall down. looking for the video we made, the pictures. i dont think you're my enemy. i just want us to be friends like before. i know we have been together, but we still can be friends. dont you think i hate you now. no im not. 8 months we been through thick and thin, together. but we are not meant to be together aite? im sorry for everything, thanks for everything, you're the one and only ratattouile i have. no one can replace that, xx.

Warning!

2010-08-13T17:05:00.001+08:00

Berhati-hati dengan kaki kikis =]

Ia membawa padah.

note book =]

2010-08-13T01:00:00.003+08:00

Okay for this entry is quite interesting. for me to be exact. today, which is thirdteen of august twenty ten by 1.08am, i asked my lil brother to bought me some food. fast food. Okay fine! Mcdonald. im craving with the nuggets. so yeah, he bought for me. *Thanks bro.* While waiting for him, im just bored and by the time my sister was sleeping and still for now. teheee. suddenly i found this.

tadaaaa :)

will story this.

Bestfriends =]

the schedule of 5 berdikari 07

Homeworks

Shirtliff. it was cheerleading international competition

att's crap :)

again att!

okay this thing was my form 5 note book. it just like, its important by the time. i need to write on what im gonna do, what im suppose to do, what i should do, and the book is like reminder okay. i wrote something i cant forget. so yeah, that's so important. and i cant believe is, that book still here, with me. when i read back, and i was like LOL okay. ala biasa la, zaman budak dulu la. kononnya nak jadi means girl, wrote some craps, nonsense note, here and that. but ive been through this. my teens time. it was fun. with them my classmates, bestfriend and so other people. i just love my life during school before. it was fucking fun. i really enjoyed it. thanks to SMK SERI BINTANG UTARA FOR GIVE THIS TO ME. I ENJOY MY LIFE TIME WITH YOUGUYS , XX.

NurulAinSyafiqah =]

2010-08-12T21:04:00.002+08:00

hello world. Im fiqa :]

haha, okay this is not funny. well i have nothing to do. im just updating my blog, *psstt! acap keep following my blog. keep reading my update*, replying some wall post on facebook, have a conversation with meea and shoot, talking shit and crap, haha while waiting for buka puasa. im so bored. so what im trying to say to youguys is, you see the picture up there? haha, i have nothing better to do than curl-ing my hair. i made my own okay. so yeah, that's it. haih.

today is gonna be my last day at Shah Alam. haha im having my hols for one week. yays! gonna meet my family and friends in kl. berbuka with them. shopping here and there. but heck! i do have tons of assignments. haha. good thing is, i can meet my family and friends in kl, but the sad thing is, im gonna miss my classmates, futsal with them, sahur with them, masing2 balik kampung, especially alim, pi balik penang, panglima balik melaka. ejam balik jb. oh dang! enjoy your hols youguys.

so what im gonna do this one week? haha, i dont know what im suppose to do. maybe chilling out with my friends, do something can make myself busy so that i can forget my past. yeah supposly do that. i have my better life now. be alone, need time to myself, fix everything, maybe looking for new guy. HAHA. siott! Oh bored. ttyl guys. will update later. toodles.

Kill me

2010-08-12T15:27:00.002+08:00

im down for what happened between us

after all u said just go away, pretend we dont know each other.

thanks for the sincere

please shut down our memories =[

Pesanan Dari Dia.

2010-08-12T13:54:00.002+08:00

Macam BOHSIA dah aku tengok kau ni.

Cuba kau tengok muka kau kat cermin.

kalau nak ikutkan banyak lagi, tapi let me keep it privacy. oh yeah, the most person i love just said this to me. hard to say now. haih. but people, no worries, what he try to tell me, im not pretty at all. that's why la he asked me to look at the mirror. he is true. very true. im not pretty at all. mungkin jadi dia malu ade orang seperti aku dalam life dia.mungkin dia jelouse because his gf as not pretty as his friend's gf. who knows. Just stay away.

Underwater Class

2010-08-11T15:29:00.007+08:00

Again and again. underwater class. hee. for this session we learn about how to control camera and control body. quite tough but we had fun before puasa. so here goes :)

part of my classmates

heee :D

afan, fiqa, myra, acip and meea =]

lecturer at the back there. haha

me me and me :)

meea and acip

hahaha

haaaaa, diver wannabe :D

The End

2010-08-11T15:18:00.002+08:00

bukan aku tanak mengaku salah aku terhadap kau. aku mengaku, tapi bukan kesemuanya salah aku. come on, kau lebih tua dari aku, kau lebih matang, kau lebih mengenal dunia, tabole ke kau berfikir sejenak salah siapa, siapa betul siapa salah. kau kemukakan perkataan muak dengan perangai aku, kau kemukakan tanak dengan aku. aku terima dengan hati yang tenang. aku turut, aku ikut.sia sia hidup 8 bulan bersama seolah-olah kau tipu dengan diri sendiri. kau sakit aku pun sakit.

kali ni kau suruh aku buang segalanya pasal kau. gambar, baju, facebook, semuanya. seolah macam budak2. kau sendiri yang mintak, kau sendiri yang nyatakan. tapi kenapa harus kau selongkar semua pasal aku. beg, handphone, segalanya. kau sakitkan hati aku, sekarang kau mahu kite bersama balik? tak puas ke dengan hina kau maki kau?

aku turut semuanya. tiada lagi yang perlu kita bincangkan. anggap la semua ni sudah selesai. aku turut segala permintaan kau. perpisahan yang kau mintak. baik aku turut. tapi jangan kau pernah pikir lagi kite akan bersama. have fun with your lifetime :)

Selamat Berpuasa!

2010-08-11T15:09:00.003+08:00

believe it or nott? it fasting month now. its Ramadhan. heeee! so i wanna wish youguys happy fasting month to all muslim, my friends, family and blablabla. so first puasa im not with my family sangat sedih =[ BUT, my sister came here with kamal and sahur together with me. thanks alot. OMG, i puasa la today it just cant believe that. heee :)

btw ada la satu cerita ni, 5.24, first day sahur. i woke up dengan mamainya :D so i terpikir cam nak smoke cam nak minum air pun ade, and nak mkn makanan yang dibungkus smlm dengan kakak. before that i tgk surau dkt bawah rumah, and tgk cam tade orang plus gelap. so maybe terpikir ade mase lagi kot. then baru bukak plastic, suddenly my roomate spoke up

meea: pet, dah azan ke?

fiqa: sumpahhh?

meea: baru je kejap tadi.

fiqa: *bungkus balik makanan tu*

the reason i woke up at 5.24am, i ingat i mimpi azan berkumandang. rupa-rupanya tu azan betul. hm. sebenarnya rasa malu dengan meea. so cam buat bodo je la en. HAHAHAHA

Why Elmo?

2010-07-28T20:47:00.002+08:00

harini i skip class because of overslept. so yeah, i didnt attended the class. sorry Mr. B. then stay kat rumah till malam. by 6pm, my classmates did something crazyy, shasha buat tatoo kat tangan meea. and its beautiful okay. so i suruh buat satu. and this is the result.

credit to shasha bubu :D

fucking 28hb.

2010-07-28T17:47:00.004+08:00

no offense, but every 28hb is sucks!

oh well, welcome to my life new boyfriend.

please think that im gonna find new one.

new life, new reputation.

moving on is the best wayy in my life

forget the person who ruined my life all this while.

byebye old boyfriend, welcome new boyfriend.

As made famous by Fiqafiqon,

Last Day of internship :(

cerita tentang kita :)

Tears

F.M this is for you :)

Internship

Oh Im Back

Celebration

away

.

tertunggu tunggu

quote of the day

deal deal

pet pot pet pot. No idea.

SINGLE; 2 WEEKS. :|

Godskitchen 2010

Kata Kau

Lelong lelong

kudos for siqiqi

mistake

-,-

quotation

another cyberworld

life

speech for today

good times!

Its you! yes, I miss

Hello December

Yunus Razip forever my brother

No title

Him and her

Titik.

letter for You, Boyfriend

Dear Bee,

Good, hard and bad times!

Interesting Hair cut

bang!

his message

another conversation

another new punk cut

stalker

piece of heart saying

second heartbeat

Oh boyfriend

he rock my world

pointer 6th sem

Routine

H**** *****I

*Happy

Goodbye

sentap

letting go

Suck

Good condition

message

Byebye long hair

one word, Enough!

mejiku

oh my brother.

Lebam(s)

Biru :(

You deserves this.

101010

Speedzone huh?

need honest?

oh weekend!

October?

kipas oh kipas

smile

why 28th?

bored to death

little girl speak

if u could

motif?

make me strong, Christina Aguilera.

oh, Madd Chadd im in love

kuat fiqa.. kuat..

Lesson for today

strong

Selesai tugas

H *I